?DESTINY?

This is what happen when a dancer got sick in the head LOL

2011-07-06T09:41:00.000-07:00

Have a happy new 2011 year readers..=)

2010-12-30T07:25:00.000-08:00

Im jus wandering.mm.if you lead your life without having a blog and jus kept it in a secret journal,would ur life/ character be any different?? btw i write in a secret journal...iv published a few personal poetry on fb & my frends love reading it :)

2010-11-30T06:05:00.001-08:00

Yeah it will.If I were to do that I would be like a boring person.Not just blog,places like facebook.My kind of person which most of the people in this world are like,needs to express themselves.but if something is just to personal I try not to write it down of course.Basicly if I find the urge or need to,I will filter the info a little,make the readers guess and wonder.I was never someone who speaks out alot,quiet most of the time,especially among people I don't really know yet.By blogging Ive learnt alot,to be brave when doin somethings,learnt to use good english when laying a phrase.yes sometime I do regret my post if dey're too sensitive,i dont delete dem,I make an apology post unless it's really crucial I will delete them to prevent any deep negativity to happen.why I do that is so that I will teach myself a lesson when I read back those posts and realise how silly I can be.my only secret journal is my thoughts and heart which I kept somethings that's so3 personal and crucial.Im no good at it but I love reading poetry espeacially when I know it's a good one..share some to me? =)

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

Plz help. I deeply detest my ex bf, all he did was give me grief, dramas and an unbearable burdern to carry!. I avoid him at uni, but this hatred is making me feel miserable. How do I overcome and let go? How would u handle it if u were in my shoes? XD

2010-11-27T19:49:00.001-08:00

Ouhkay surely he has his reasons and something that he is not satisfied at.You wana try finding out why or what's it about 1st?the best solution is both parties just have to let the ego down and talk it out.Itis a miserable feeling and itis crucial to let go.so handle it like an adult if he chose to handle it like a kid.If he can see you doing that,he'll come to realise how pathetic he is.and yes,that is how i wud handle it.not just towards the opposite gender bt the same ones too.communication does wonders..have patience,it'll take time.. x)

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

Trying for a change

2010-11-26T20:25:00.000-08:00

I gotta tell you guys about my new dance Idol.Been awhile since I wana blog bout this.His name is Keone Madrid living in the United States.He is absolutely sick!he's like got a little most out from everything else!He has Lyle Beniga's kinda crazy shit,Shaun Evaristo moves and flow a little,Shit Kingz wow factor all put together,his just crazy man!ugh!

So you've seen for yourself?Now you know what I mean when he got a little like Lyle Beniga?But just hold it,wait till the video below.You just see how verseatile he is when you see more of his dance execution.. ;)

A dancer from Choreo Cookies and Choreographer from Movement Lifestyle Studio's,repping San Diego.Movement Lifestyle (dance)Studio alone is big.Working alongside the people of M.L Studio's shows much.This is really awesome man,I wanna be like him someday.Been keeping afew lots of his video in my gadgets.Can't stop watching and learning.Finding inspirations from his work.Good in couple work,lyrical,L.A & a little Jazz I see.When have to give energy,he's just awesome man..

Keone's a good looking dude man,can't blame if he got lots of fans and alot of people like me that idolise him,period.Got a good & sweet smile,pretty down to earth telling by when he speaks out and a really good sense of style and fashion.You should really check him out on youtube and all.

Keone Madrid the Illest

Im a girl..and i find it challenging to be bestfriends with a boy...u cant get too close otherwise it becomes awkward. Do you find it hard to be bestfriends with a girl? what obstacles do u face? ^^

2010-11-26T20:07:00.001-08:00

It's only natural to feel that way,I'm serious,because I know.heh!But really ah..Time will only tell wether you're truly bestfriends or lovers turn out to be.Coming from me a guy,my point of view alone,It's up to your decisions as what you truly want to stay as friends or try become lovers.'Sometimes' if you hide it long enough that love/crush feeling will go away.If it doesn't you'll only truely know the answer,that you can never be his 'girl bestfriend' and yeah..;)

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

I don't wanna be ordinary but try hard to be outstanding

2010-11-20T21:12:00.000-08:00

Yesterday i took this drug called 'power'.My local race call it pill kuda-kuda or something like that.Don't worry,I didn't get hooked and I'm just fine.I ask lotsa questions before I took it.Insyaallah nothing is wrong.I was kinda peer presured it's a give and take scenario,it wasn't the givers fault I'm sure.He told me his intentions and we got it cleared.It was still my decision and I chose to take it.The experience is pretty fantasy.

The feeling wasn't hard to describe.For a 1st timer,there was pain but there's pleasure too.When I shut my eyes and let the whole thing take on my mind with the song and lights around me,I saw a blue dragon.I was dancing and a light flew around me.My path was like a million stone I've to step on so I won't fall down the height.I had to fight or I'd lose myself.It could have been nice,but I think its just wasn't the right time.Now I understand.But I still dont favour it,that's why I was right from the beginning.Taste bad to be good?maybe a good idea..

Don't have to exactly be bad to be good.But just have a taste of it,I think it's fine..The benefits for your own good and the people around you..It's a life experience.

It was my choice to take.It's just something bad for me to equipt in life,for experience sake.An easy simplified reason/excuse to it,example it's like what I said on the above paragraph.Simply one like when I take it,I will know what's it like and decide if it's just too bad or good.So I can help the people around me who intends of doing the same.Lotsa reasons to it I must say for takin them.

I've took a step higher in life maybe for me to fall or maybe not.We'll see..Here comes Destiny approaching again.

Why do some believe in God?

2010-11-19T00:08:00.000-08:00

Nothing I see is of an interest now,I don't dare to call it passion anymore,more like an addiction.Maybe I was plain unlucky to fall into a beautiful disaster,which makes good feelings to have a bad name.This unbalance thing causes me madness,but goodness still comes.God I ask what is this purpose and what's your intentions?

I heard a saying from a precious soul,God shall never test a human to it's limits.But what I'm feeling is really like I'll shall only know my limit when I'm dead.Because I think right now,my limit is my last breath.

I gave my best,my good side for anyone to be bless having it.I think I've come close to giving my all.Why god,why don't you still just let me have it?Do you really literally want me to give my all?

I've learnt something,happiness is just an emotion.Not some destiny that'll lead to a believe.They say you have to taste bitter before sweet.God how much more bitterness..Dear god I blame you for costing my happiness.I remember I once use to be a very happy soul.Now I'm so serious,so cautious.What have you done for I should deserve this.I've never asked for any of this.You gave it to me.Now I'm into it,I got the worst.If you're preparing me for something,I don't get it why you're doing all this till I'm closest to all burned up?Actually I think I once here and there already been burned.I get your message,I've come close to a free thinker,but I never stop believe in you..I'm speechless..

June and October birthday traits

2010-10-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

JUNE =FINEASS Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

OCTOBER=HOTTIE Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

My aura,my vibe,my life

2010-10-23T23:36:00.000-07:00

When you hurt me deep inside,
The pain I try so hard to hide.
But I feel my heart break,
And my soul begins to ache.
I fight back the tears the best I can,
I keep telling myself I love this gal.
I cannot understand why?
You do and say things that make me cry.
I love you with all I am deep within,
You are my best friend.
Love should never bring a tear to your eye,
And I often wonder if you know why?
So please don’t hurt me just because you can,
I’m not sure how much more I can stand.

Though I believe so much in what you brought up and that I wanna be there for you so much.But I just can't fight my heart that it feels this way.

Bury me alive then bury me dead.So at least I see you do your heartless things.By that time it'll already be too late.Staring and watching you refusing to think.
Dead & Gone soon.

The counts,energy,breathing,heartbeat,steps,the individually different executed mood,the passion,that keeps my heart pumped telling my brain to keep living so it can take control of my body to let me take control of my life.The one thing that keeps me strong when my loved ones can't be there for me when I'm down.One thing I hold on to so hard..

For whatever reason,I pray to you Allah S.W.T,give me strength courage and justice in life.I wish to be happy again.Give me back my vibe,give me back my real life.I can be successful,I can be the a man of values if you let me and open the doors of opportunity for me and all that I just ask for.I can be the man that you want me to be.Because a good thought is you speaking to me.Allah I pray you let her live on so I can keep continuing to love her.Don't take her away from me as I'm just not ready for you to do that.Allah mercy on us & help me..

Not ready for the change when I see you in that wedding dress

2010-10-05T23:23:00.001-07:00

Kakak, I'm not ready for you to actually leave the house.I'm not.When I see you in that wedding dress and you go up the pelamin,I'm all so happy for you but I never never am ready for the change.Because I know I can't talk to anyone as much close when I'm talking to you.Every night I can just stay up late and look forward to you coming home cause I know you'll be having your late dinner and watching the tv for your CSI,Korean dramas and all.Those are the time where usually I can share alot with you and you advising me and stuff..Saying your point of view at me with relationships school and probs with mum and dad all..I know after December 12 I shouldn't look forward to that anymore.I just wish I can have someone I love so I'd be able to share everything so deeply similar to like what we two usually share but they can never replace you my one and only blood sister.Now whenever I'm down,I've to be strong and help myself.I must prepare myself soon as I can't let pain bring me to a fall again cause I know you won't be around to comfort my heart anymore,to give me a listening ear..Kakak,I will miss you so much,I know so well myself.. ),=

I love you okay Kak..

You're Mean yet you're Lovely

2010-09-23T21:45:00.000-07:00

Well here's my 1st ever dance freestyle video.There just a message that's in me wanted to express it to dance.One of the easiest and fastest way i could do them is alwasy by freestyling rather then choreographing cause it always takes up time and I'm pretty tight and busy lately..I was also actually waiting for my dance mates to turn up.was bored so I just decided to freestyle.

So if you got this page by googling,here's my short showcase Freestyling to the song Let's Just Be by Miguel Jontel.The location is at Republic Polytechnic E block.I'm a student from Institute of Technical Education Choa Chu Kang also known as ITE CCK.I'm representing SG(Singapore) hiphop,Fhunkie Stylerz(F.I.S) & SleekBeatz(SB).Recognize Local talent people.It's not a waste,we're growing stronger and slowly being very recognisable..

My bad ayt

2010-09-22T07:07:00.000-07:00

alright2,see I'm so not myself.I haven't been like myself lately.My bad to you guy.I don't know wether you've actually read the post below before.But I've delete them to prevent any chances of negative things to happen.I don't know you and you don't know me.I know I got no right to talk about you like that.I know its kinda a little overboard.Whatever I feel now,how my character is like,all that aside I still got no right to talk about you like that.So forgive me humble slave of Allah.Maybe my mood and the things happening around me make me easily get tick off from the way you speak.Perhaps that's just the way you speak.Sorry brother.I'll see you around.

I'm sorry,but this is not a humble post

2010-09-22T01:31:00.000-07:00

*My brain died when my heart tries to keep pumping climbing the mountain.It was a rainy night.Now it's so hard,I can't breathe right.Sunshine help me overcome this.A little warmth please cause the pouring rain occurred for so long..

That's what I post on facebook.I look at myself sometime I can't deny I'm a very emotional man.But lately I've been emotionally a weakling.I'm rather disappointed what I have become to be.I feel stupid.Please don't mind me at all when I'm that way.If can and if you please to help me,please give me a tight slap to just man up.I kinda built this anger inside me.I suddenly feel mad even more so easily.I think it has been building inside me everytime I kept swallowing them in when I was weak.I think it just got bigger and bigger everytime I swallow pain.So I said I was an emotional man.Imma let that be.I won't stop it.I think this is me,the seasons keep changes.Sometimes I'll be weak,nice,quiet but now I'm furious mad.This is me deal with it.I'm not afraid to make this stand.It's time I try to change the direction of the wind.I'm done being weak for so long.So now this rage came,you'll find a hard time stopping it.

I'm different when I'm mad.My ego and harsh words character came out like totally surprised you followers.yeah I know.I'm not afraid.I'm telling you I'm doing this for me!It's time I start thinking for myself.I'm human too ayt.

A good display of movement by dancing to relate to anger
Song-Won't back down by Eminem
Choreography-Lyle Beniga

Nice blog .!

2010-09-19T21:42:00.001-07:00

hey thanks!I have no idea and no time to decorate it even better,haha.Keep reading and following yeah.but don't mind the emo shits though,heh..x)

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

Episode 5 month

2010-09-18T21:55:00.000-07:00

You know it ain't wise but you still do it steering my ride around like mad.
It's not even a temptation,but it's a choice.

Caused it ain't like you drifting making my ride look good.

Now you just caused my precious ride(drive).
How the heck am I suppose to find S.O.S(Inspiration) in the middle of nowhere?

Well there's gotta be something right.
God let a miracle come cause I've work so hard for whatever's worth.

Salam Aidilfitri to all fellow Muslim's

2010-09-09T05:50:00.000-07:00

Click on the video above if you wish to hear the sweet sound of Takbir Aidilfitri*

Bismillah..

AsyhaduAllah illahaillallah..Waasyhaduanna Muhammadar Rasullullah..

As you know,once you hear the Takbir,Aidilfitri is here and everyone is taking moments to ask for forgiveness and forgiving one another.I too Khalis Ihsan Bin Abdul Rahman would like to do the same.With no special phrases,I come all sincerely and as a passionate Muslim,wishing you a wonderful Aidilfitri this year.To dearest you reader/friend/stranger who have stick with me through thick and thin,please do forgive me of my sins and wrong doings and Halal the food and drinks I get.It has been a rough year,for me the least.It's nice to know you fellows have been a part of my life.

By this message,I hope I inspire you all to do much more further greatness in life and days to come and may we never forget to those who are unfortunate in many ways during this special time and to those who have left us behind.May they rest in peace.May you all have good time celebrating with your loved ones.Believe happiness is always there,Insyaallah..

Hikmah,let this be at an end..

2010-08-29T03:09:00.002-07:00

Lemme just start over..Initially this post I wrote all was somehow I find them worthless.I saw myself complaining over things.God give me strength to make it through this.I see my friends been so lucky have a good family friends lover.They're good person themselves.For I am unlucky not having the perfect life.But i look back some of the things I saw days back.There are more people living in this world suffering even more worst then I am take my mum as the nearest examples.This has more sadness then I am experiencing with.I know myself how tiring this can be.But i pray every time for god to give fairness and justice in life.Some people die living along with their pain.So every time I'm down I keep telling myself,there's worst..I kept crying this month,which I know if I cry during the month of Ramadan,a fasting month I'll just break my fast.The more I cry the more strength it took from inside my heart the more weak I feel for the whole day.I fight it just to continue fasting because I want to fast.I'm still thinking about you Allah..I pray for the happy life I need so much from you Allah and let the sadness and burden be lessen for least..It's been an unfair life,but I won't give up.Persistence and Believing for fairness and happiness will come to happen ahead.I love you Fatimah no matter how bad things turn out to be,I will never stop being here for you.You're not perfect so am I.I deserve this,as it's time I realise how mean reality can be..I love my family.I shall do my best to be with them more often for I know what I have lack in myself for them..

If I trip,will you catch my hand?

2010-08-19T22:38:00.000-07:00

How's it going there,good?Well Just to let you guys know the late past I've been busy with SleekBeatz now I'm making a comeback with Fhunkie.F.I.S comeback is Suntec 2010 as I made a last minute join in with my 1st crew for our comeback.So you guys gotta go check us out.We're stronger cause we've evolved our individual style after embracing them away for awhile with each of our individual styles crew and now we're sharing choreography's and styles with each other making sure to blow you guys away for your entertainment(Insyaallah).Do come down support us this Saturday 21st August at Suntec City Mall at the Galleria Square Level 1 at 1pm for the audition round.For the non-Muslim's,bring some water bottles and snacks as it's gonna be a long day.Get some shades or hats along as it might just get a Lil sunny.It'll be a guaranteed fun if you enjoy DANCING that's if!See you there! xD

I know you got more then an option.I might just be blown away very soon.Because I feel like a fool already for too long.I think the least is either it's time to let the whole world know or you stop killing my expectations.I'll definitely hurt myself as it's hard to move away as I'm already so immune to it,but I feel I gotta do what I gotta do.Feels like I'm a pussy being this way for long.Don't have to make it official,but just treat me well to my needs if we ever wanna avoid this..I gave my all,so as you can see I'm none like those previous man..

I need you and I need you bad

2010-08-16T02:20:00.000-07:00

Sleek Beatz Participation for Singapore Youth Olympic Games (S.Y.O.G).Rather proud we actually did something by participating in a dance competition that has got to do with the Youth Olympic Games after seeing every outcome to the event espeacially the opening ceremony.Never regretted anything even if we didn't won the 2nd spot for this competition.SleekBeatz is here and we're not going anywhere,and to that I give a Shoutout to Fhunkie Stylerz,Fad Faction,Phat G's too as they're part of the family tree.Let's dream big make things happen.Put a smile on everyone's faces.Really counts..

She once loved me more then anything else in the world

2010-08-09T03:44:00.000-07:00

She once loved me more then anything else in the world.

Bryan Ignatius's(FB friend/sec sch mate)

This is not fair,I gave you my all.I really want you to change.That is why I totally aggree with the statement ontop.You use to love care for me like I was everything in this world back when it was just our 1st 3 weeks of dating.You changed.You can't keep comparing to your ex nor you can't keep thinking for yourself.I loved you so much that's why I stayed,that's why I refuse to give up and I need you to change.I believe there's good in you.But I really feel like dying and I really feel like giving up sometimes..Allah aku penat lah,argh!!

Self Reflect

2010-08-03T06:23:00.000-07:00

This was back last sunday at Orchard Central.Didn't expect anything much from this dance competition.Just wanted to give it a try.Just had a wild imagination if we get to win this.The winner gets to represent Singapore performing with a Taiwanese girlband S.H.E if I'm not wrong.We were thinking if we won,just thought of getting away from Singapore for awhile.Just needed a break from everything else.But we can dream on though,haha..Well we had fun doing this.Hope you guys would enjoy watching.=)

We got something to prove

2010-08-01T23:41:00.000-07:00

Alright This was what I was busy with lately.Da HipRock Affairz Dance Competition held at Bukit Panjang Plaza on the 24th July.Despite given the tough competition to us crews like Fantastic,Freekum,Phat G's,Fhunky Nutz, still we manage to clinch the 2nd placing next to the winner.It was a wonderful job by everyone and every crew participated was awesome.To me every crew is a winner because everyone is awesome as they gave their 'A' game.So here is SleekBeatz featuring Zul(FFC) & Louis(FadFaction).Hope you guys enjoy the piece..=)

I Wished You'd Stop

2010-07-23T00:21:00.000-07:00

(Usher Usher Usher)
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 1:
I can't, get to work on time, can't believe the words to her I just said
But who the hell argue n fight like dogs at 6 in the morning?(in the mornin)
I know it's gonna' be some more sh** tonight mm oooh
Our pastor's callin, tellin me I done went too far in
I'm seen around town and my friends can't recognize me,
'Cuz I took a chance on love(love), it's like(like), I'm dyin(ooh dyin)

Chrs:
For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world
'Cause you were my girl, girl, girl
I done damn near lost my mama, I done been through so much drama
I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you, I done gave up errthing I had to
As hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say
I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 2:
I'm losin my mind, can't figure out who's wrong or right
I know it's you I love, but then I also know it's you I don't like
You claim you hate who I was, but that's the reason you here now
You think I don't know what's up, but sweetheart that's what ruined us
I ain't afraid to say I got needs
But the only time you here for me is when the bottles poppin' and everything is sweet
But I I'm tired of sleeping in the other room spending them long nights
Trying to figure out what in the hell in my heart I ain't do right. (Oooh for u)

For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world(back against the world)
'Cause you were my girl, girl(girl), girl,
I done damn near lost my mama(mama), I done been through so much drama(drama)
I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.(never thought I would be)

I'm ready to sign them papers(papers), papers(paii), papers(paai ooh oh oh oh)
(I done took) all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you(know that I love u), I done gave up errthing I had to
(Anything I had to) as hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say(I'm affraid I gotta say)
I'm ready to sign them papers(papers), papers(paii), papers(girl I took all I could take)
(I done took) all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ohoh! OoOOooh! Oooooh yea! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Ready Ready Ready Ready
All my fellas up in here, if u had enough and u're ready to sign say
Ready Ready Ready Ready(I'm ready, yes I am)
All my ladies if u sick and tired, and u're, ready to sign, say
Ready Ready Ready Ready(ooh)
I can't keep livin this life, I'm feena leave it for the last time I'm
Ready Ready Ready Ready

I done damn near lost my mama, I done been through so much drama
I done turned into the man I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you, I done gave up errthing I had to
As hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say
I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Hopefully I finally moved on too

2010-07-08T23:35:00.000-07:00

Okla,I'm gonna say right now that I miss this 'friend' of mine.Her name's Nabilah.Her nick's Ella.But I call her Elle,cooler right?haha..She posted a post for me,really sweet..I like,haha.So I wanna do the same in return,but the part I missed her really is true.Grab a picture of her there from her blog because I think she really looked hot at the picture,haha!She's the sweetest being I've ever met.So patient,so succumbed her life with happiness.She just know how to live happily,and I like that.=)

Wanna know what she posted?haha..

-Alright , have to say this . I miss Khalis Ihsan ? Yes ? No ? Yes ? I dont know ... Hmmm ..... Yes I miss him :) Its been awhile . He's always been treating me good , but Im always the troublesome one . I know laa Khals . Dont have to say .. And we had a great talk on the phone last night . But I dont know why we argue so much ! About everything . Ouhkay he praised Nutzcrew so much , so I praised SleekBeatz and Fhunkie Stylerz much much more . Hahahhaa !! ADNAN SEMPIT !!!! And , well he asked me to sing the song that I recommended to him , but then I dont know it turned out to be what . Laughing and argueing . Hmmpph pheewss !! But it was a great chat together . Im just so sad about something . Something personal , that we've been through , that hurts him deep . Im aware of that Khals . But it takes time for me to think . Thank you for always understand me . When Im mad and throw all those words to you , you still handle me with patience . I know . I see everything . Anyways , I wish you all the best in whatever you do now . I hope whatever you do , makes you feel happy and satisfy . Anything , you know you can beep me anytime ...

Sweet ey?I miss you too Elle.I'll just follow to whatever flow God destine us to be like.For all I know you will never lose this place as a friend the least,in my heart.And not to forget,something random.I like the profile song on her blog.Personally I think it describes her whole self in everyway.Some sophisticated sexy individual,haha.But really that's what it is,heh!Thank you Elle for somehow being in a part of my life.You never2 once fail to make me smile. =)

Time to really just Dance

2010-07-03T02:15:00.000-07:00

Check out 2 of "my" new dance choreography.

Choreographed a dance to the song OMG-Usher somewhere on mid May this year(duh~). Got helped from Kamil and Sulaiman.Dancers performed in the clip are Chacha,Me,Man

Choreographed & Improvised Man's choreo to NLT's-Let Me Know.Dancers performed on clip Me & Sulaiman.

So comments or leave a tag alright

The Fisherman tells a story of his 2 way love.

2010-06-30T22:57:00.000-07:00

Its like when we're on a boat sitting.It was so nice just the 2 of us but she wanted to have fun rather then spent time with me.I know she's scared of love because she deserve better after being treated by her past man..Jumping off trying catch a swim.She's having too much fun that she forgot what she's losing out.The splash she make causes the boat to drift away and the steady waves makes me go even further.I have a choice to stay or swim to her.As I want to say to her,don't take too long to come find me when you're already too far because I'm done fixing the holes you make in this boat,so I'm staying.The least is I'll just slowly paddle the boat back to you and if the waves allows me to reach you in time before I tired out,then perhaps we're meant to stay still..

On the other side,there's an island where a woman stay.Well what can I say..I was so confident I can let go of her and just try to be friends.Now I come back looking for her..Maybe I'm not sure of what I want right now.There are somethings I understand why things can't be done.But I just feel she too deserve better after what happen.I shall not persue her for I am also unsure of myself.I don't want to end up hurting anyone either.

And so the fisherman wonders,why is he always unlucky to experience love this way.Finding himself seeing another woman who has been hurt from another man's wrong doing.What did he do to deserve this kinda luck.Never he treat it as bad,just a different one.

p.s *maybe slight exaggeration here and there haha

END

To you.Yeah what you said is true last night after the meaningful text convo we had.I had to broke a tear to actually know what I had to say because wen we're on the phone I was just quiet.Wanted something from you but you just can't figure it out.So after I said all that,you broke to tear saying you're sorry and you replied a few,it's true.Maybe you shouldn't be surprise if I drifted off.But I'm a man who's diff as I try to finish off what I started,so I don't walk away that easily,just don't count on it.You won't be a choice unless you make me in anyways to feel like doing so.

For god sake all this,for the sake of putting on a sincere smile again

2010-06-27T08:46:00.000-07:00

Look it's been crazy..We talking bout the number 4 here..

*Chatting with you just to make the wave calm and normal again..We're just facing what they say things just never turn out the way we wanted it to be for us.You're happy now,so am I.So let's keep it that way..=)

*As I was browsing through old photos on FB seeing you and us.Just having the thought that you use to be mine and your guy now is my friend is pretty wierd.But you know me,I can live with this.Really I am cool,not playing anything..We had our sweet moments.Why it's just so hard to talk now,is just maybe I'm too mad at how you do things.Perhaps time I let it go.Yes for sure I have moved on,long time ago.Just mad at you before still till just now.As I said Earlier it's time I forgive things.Everyone makes silly mistakes,sometimes not realising it ever.I don't have to say it..Yeah I'll smile to you now.But it'll take time..=)

*You were something for sure..You got me off my feet by your enthusiasm!You make me smile alot.But I think we are really friends that's what it is.You should keep being happy,in fact that's what I've ever wanted you to be.Just wanna make you happy untill things turn out otherwise.I'm so so sorry.As someone special to me said,never had I any bad intentions,just wanted you to be happy.Even if there is,it should be the positive ones..I've decided,this is who we should be,friends.Everything looks nice and better that way.I was just having silly feelings for the moment,I truly apologise..It'll take time to get back to how we use to be,I know we will be normal again.friends as always.=)

*And to you,It's been even more crazy..So much had happened.So much..I just wish you someday are willing to be that 'together'.I'll patiently wait for you.I know you're not ready.You know what you lacked,I see it.But since you still insist on getting ready by yourself.I respect that.We're looking like we're so special already.There's just that something huh..?Thanks to love and life experiences I know how to react & handle to situations like this.Someday,If its blessed and faith is on our side we'll be together.At least I won't get hurt so bad like last time..Don't worry I too don't like that quick and already in relationship thing.It's crap.But so,it has already been 2 months and a week..

Damn I just wana dance and really forget all this for awhile..

If you could go back in time 10 years and tell your younger self something, what would it be?

2010-05-31T00:05:00.001-07:00

It would probarbly be start dancing quick.Stop asking bout road accidents,read more about bikes or something so I can actually get psyched about taking my bike license..hahaha

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

This questions

2010-05-20T06:03:00.000-07:00

List of questions

Is a love a thing to live with ?
Can we survive without it ?
Maybe its true , Maybe its false .
Different people all , Have different thoughts .
Now what is love ?
Is it strong ?
Is it pain ?
Will it last long ?
Does it hurt to be in love ?
Will we get bless from the God's above ?
Is it tough to be together ?
Can we both be close forever ?

My answers

We need Love,we turn to them when we're down.
We need it real bad that's why we can't survive without it.
Aggreed,but this is what I've been thought from my mother to believe since young.
What it really is for real,Love is a serious matter,love is everlasting till eternity.Love is not about marriage.Love is lasting till eternity after u get married and with your loved oneS..
It is strong
It is very painful
It will last long if both individual is compatible faithfull
We will be blessed for trying.If you are ready,he will bless you with eternity love with an example like at the age of 43 when you're asking out your wife and she still have butterflies meeting you.
It is tough to be together,because you have go through thick and thin to know if he/she for a start is wether even compatible with you or not.Other then that you could actually just turn out to be just total strangers..
Can a couple be close forever,that is not for us to know.If we work hard as a couple and keep it clean,he might just bless you with eternity love.

I found this questions,and now I'm asking myself and I answer from what I believe.I've no guarantee in love because I myself am searching for the actual right one.The one that suits me,that really makes me happy.You can only know the answers to this questions on love as time goes by.Untill then,never get your hopes up too high just because it's nice now.It's always nice in the beginning..The world is harsh,so is love.But God is kind and he is fair..So believe,keep trying to find love and never give up.

Let's clear this

2010-05-15T09:52:00.000-07:00

Alright,I had fun day today..Trying to be stress free when I'm around with Sleek Beatz..Did our own crewmate a favour performing for his mother's wedding..Congratulations and last long,Insyaallah..

alright side track..

I think it's time we make things clear..I have to leave and I can't come back.I can't stop you for being who you are,but what we are sometimes don't fit it.This is coming from my heart.Can't stop you from being young still.I need something real now,seriously.I don't wish to have fun anymore.We just have to take this that we're unlucky,because I can't leave now and then come back to you again when you're mature then.It'll never be a nice thing.So destiny states,we experienced unlucky love.honestly I have been missing you I just didn't wana show for the sake so we'll be able to move.I'm not lying,the music video's,track broken was actually dedicated to you too.Don't know if you've noticed..But thank you for appearing in my life.You are worth it..You'll make a good wife to whoever that's lucky to be with you in the future.the way you pour your love for your special partner is treasureable..

I state what is fact

U da breakup with Nini??? how sad, i sincerely thought u both sucha sweet couple!

2010-05-07T04:16:00.001-07:00

yeah..somethings just didn't work out.there weren't really a prob between us as we love each other when we were together still.just that somethings we do couldn't really get along that well..and sometime 'time' in many ways is of the issue..

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

Random shits yaw..

2010-05-02T19:52:00.000-07:00

K I'm so f-ing random..Am in class,stuck with lessons..so stuck till i can't continue anymore,I decided to post some random shit for ya all dopes there checking me out still ,peace...

Lyle Beniga
Brian Pupos of SoReal Cru
Taeyang of Big Bang

This are my 3 major dance Idol..I know I use to idolise Bi Rain..but he's kinda off already..so not really interested..haha!If only I can master Lyle's energy and dope choreography's along with Puspos smooth ghetto flow.Then to master Taeyang's smooth performance in dance is the Iller shitx man! hahaha....That's right,they're my dance Idols for sure.shit I know random still right? haha...

My Karma..

2010-04-25T09:46:00.000-07:00

Lemme just say,1st and foremost.This ain't mostly about girls.That's just partly alright?

Life been just so haywired..i feel like i don't have time to do somethings that matters much in life for the most important part of my life..I can only concentrate on doing those that really plays the most part of my life.school,dance,family..even for school I don't have much time for my school friends,as for dance goes for my outside friends too..which goes the same to my boo..damn..If only ya all know what's happening right now,only then you'll understand..I'm struggling,I'm stucked,I'm stuck in between..I need to find a way to pull this through..Everything been so tensed..And if I don't mind sharing with the WORLD,all my blog updates will be filled with just sorrowness,sorryness,depressed and hard blues..I'm sorry this really hasn't been a good time..Not all the people in the world are lucky.Some good things happens to some people,some just don't no matter how talented they are and how much longer they've been around the scene..this is life.I'm living it..My prophocies states that this is how my destiny have been going on non-stop for all my 19+ years..Yes I am not in a good state.I'm sorry.I will find myself again soon,Insyaallah..

Black is back and stronger then ever

2010-03-28T22:33:00.000-07:00

On behalf of Fhunkie Stylerz & Sleek Beatz.We come back and come new in black.Beacuse Black is back and is stronger then ever..

F.I.S feels good to be dancing as F.F.C(Fhunk Fam Crew).The last time we danced as F.F.C was back then in Da Sho Case 4.Listen up..Our name was and were never dirty.There's just more haterz then fans that's why it looked like that which you guys assumed.We were well loved by the scene only people are jealoused of our big times comebacks and explosions in the scene that's why their 'DIRTY' mouth just had to start talking.Why should we stop hinting you haters?Because we already know who you guys are??pfft..If hate don't mix with us,simple as that.We rep harder then you that's why..If we're in our own world,why you're down there?We were hated for being good and being dope,well that's normal in this kinda things.Lemme just say,will never stop smoking you..But you're always welcome to change your ways and be our friends.Other then that,word up,Fhunkie Stylerz..,you're bitter. Explosion~

As for the rest of you that Idolise us,thank you and keep the love coming..This is how we role as a fam..There's off and on with each other,but we stay and comeback as one always..That's how we role..We'll always be tight.

Representing to you the freshest newest Sleek Beatz..A collaboration crew consisting of 2 groups for the main dancers are Fhunkie Stylerz & Fad Faction..We present to you coming in strong.We mean business..When you cast us out,we show you that you've made huge mistake in doing so.We make you take our word because we wana show you we intend to walk the talk.Our 1st appearance was just bad luck but trying again shows you we're no wannabe.We're Sleek in hitting those rythymic Beats.Yeah we'll be around,remember our name..Reprezen..

ya'll wana know it so bad right?

2010-03-15T01:58:00.000-07:00

That's her right there..Tiny I know,haha..Things are very different being with her,good and in a bad way..I still have her in my heart no matter the end..=)
Any disaggreements,keep your oppinions to yourself for now..skibbish!

(PG post) Self Within

2010-02-04T07:25:00.000-08:00

This post was PG once.But I decided to change my ways.Well at least I'll try to.Because 1st and foremost this blog was suppose to be a mature a humbled blog and I'm starting to hate my actual inner self of being very grudge full..So I'm taking away what I post earlier and I'm just gonna say I won't take in anymore of what I feel earlier in this post.Like whatever the problem was,I'm just gonna let it be..I must change,I must really be the mature man I am..That is why this post title is still titled Self within.After I read what I wrote,I am taken back by my own words,what Impression I made..And whoever fault in the previous post is,Whether it's me or theirs,I'm sorry for being so expressive.yeah,that's it..

post re-edited on Wednesday 11.13am 10 March 2010

Girl you should be my lady

2010-02-02T01:37:00.000-08:00

Some say it ain't over till it's really over..There's something i gotta say before deciding to let you go..Here I am with my head looking down of regrets with the mistakes that I've done in making decisions.
I made alot of mistakes and made every wrong decisions is because I am human.What I need now is for you to really for forgive me the least.It should have been you back then,not her..It brings me great regret knowing just recently back then that you still have feelings for me.I don't know if it's still the same now..'If' it's ever possible,I'd like to win your heart,back like I won it the last time.I know I've to start from scratch and things will be even harder eversince that 'it' happened.I don't know how I'll do it and I don't know wether I'll really do it,because of friends of 3rd party.I don't want to end up being a bad friend to them.Since it's not a good time,things won't be brought up..But what is really in my mind now is just you..It's what that matters to me now.I'll fight all distractions with in mind all for and about you.But if it's a forbidden love,then I shall just leave my presence for you.I'll have to learn to take that love for you away,from myself..

Someone special in heart

2010-02-02T00:50:00.000-08:00

Dearest Nadzirah Binte Azaruddin..It's cool that I've a friend like her.Despite her brace face,the annoying pinching,lies someone who's pretty and sweet (changed)soft spoken soul.She gives you a listening ear when you're down.Someone who is very understanding.We're all busy..I will always unserstand if she can't go out and just chill with me.But sometimes Nadz,you just took the time to go out despite everything.Doing such small things is very specially sweet.I hope our friendship lasts..

My other friends,don't be envious.Nadzirah here just caught my heart that it droves me to blog about her..Friends care,stay for a long time..A special shoutout to FIS,Taufiq,Haziq.You guys are one of the wonderous friends in this world that I have,because you're always around.

Allah is God,and he shall always bless people who does and be good.Not now,future.Not future,the after life.Believe it..Not easy,but believe it..

Just for Laugh

2010-01-22T01:53:00.000-08:00

Me and my classmate named Zack was doing an act imitating the China men workers in Singapore.I'd thought I'd be confronted by my Chinese friends or something if they thought it was racism or something,but I guess it's okay?because they were laughing along with me,heh..Well the act was inspired by a friend of mine named Isaac,haha!And the other was me doing a random catwalk and acting like an Ah Kua lar..haha!Well out of entertainment for humour,watch the video.hopefully you'll enjoy it okay?

Bi Rain needs to buck up..

2009-12-27T01:33:00.000-08:00

3 reasons..The song,dance & Lyle Beniga's in there..
Just wanna let it out that,Taeyang's pretty much singing my heart out.
Thanks brother,may god bless you and your career..Asian represent.
A song from Taeyang - Where you at

random & can't sleep yet....

2009-12-25T08:41:00.000-08:00

I just had a run through in my blog.read all my past previous post just thought of reflecting my life.see how it changes from one's past to now..and this one post to me is like legend ah.and i still find it much amusing.I think this was the one my friend Wan(3ot) was referring to,right?hahaha.I just copied and paste the thing..

Monday, May 11, 2009

Thoughts
K - Khalis
C - Concious
K - hmm..
C - what's with the sigh?
K - nothing just thinking...
C - on what?
K - not sure..
C - girl?
K - hmm.yes i guess..
C - why which girl now?
K - notin,no girl.just that..
C - just what?!
K - aiyo..
C - you weak ah!
K - siala what weak?!
C - you're so weak,that everygirl you've ever been with steps on you & doesnt appreaciate you!
K - aye..siala,last warning ehk!
C - correct wat??that's what even some of your friends says bout you.
K - ...
C - haizz....
K - den must do wat?
C - time for you to get buck!
K - like?
C - i dunno,go figure ah.i just randomly say it...
K - yar right,hopeless...
C - hehe...
moments later...
C - come on bro get a grip,and get yourself something to do for now.for the moment don't think about relationships.later false hope again,like the current one..
K - yar correct ah.im gonna Bboy to keep it off my mind.but eh?how you know about the current one?
C - of course ah,say i am you what...
K - (coming back to reality again) (-_-) ~~~~
* Stop trying,the time will come for you to be in love again.have some faith & patience for yourself.stop killing yourself.God will set the time for you soon enough Insyaallah...

hahaha,i dunno is it just me or what.but its definitely brings me a smile reading it again,haha.hope it goes same for you!peace..=)

Friday..

2009-12-25T07:12:00.000-08:00

Alright,today i stayed at home the whole day.Didn't go for friday prayers,yes I know..I'm not perfect,and sorry Allah..Thought I would just gave myself sometime to recover from my sickness.Yeah it did.Like now,I'm feeling so much better.

Alright readers.I got something for you guys.I'm so shocked that somebody would actually bother to shoot a video when I'm dancing.But yeah okay..Thank you to whoever that's taken this video.So here it is for some of you who have yet to see my piece..So ya all can save the trouble of adding me on facebook and all..haha.Hope you all enjoy right..feel free to comment.Ya I know,I was so god damn nervous.It pretty much affects my whole capability to perform on that day..1st time 'bah',but still not an excuse.I'm so determine to try again the next time.

And yar I just found out today that my homies went SUPPERCLUB without me!!!!tkpe korang,aku ingat tetap ingat punyer...

p.s you are one lazy brother you know that.you expect that great opportunity's to fall easily to your hands something like that?nah,things don't work that way.untill you the least I see you lay one blood & sweat of hardwork,maybe we'll talk more.Other than that,I'm not convinced.People work and worked their ass off to be where they dyingly wanna be.and you wanna take the easy way.I too can do what you do,and YES im GLAD you felt SMOKED & DEMORALISED.I hope you get the message.this ain't hating,this is some love for you.if it's hate I wont say brother in the 1st place..DISSED

My 1st try doing solo. CodeEdge3 Asia(S'pore Leg Finals) 2009

2009-12-22T01:14:00.000-08:00

Sorry readers..I'm not much of a blogger I guess..But I thank those who kept dropping by to check my life out.Recently I participated in Singapore Malaysia dance competition face-off..Which I've mentioned before.But I don't wish to elaborate more of it already..On returning to Singapore..I heard of a big dance competition called the Code-Edge3 Asia..There's group and solo category.I had this funny feeling of wanting to join.I really don't know what drives me to join the competition.I only had 1 week to think bout it and to prepare my piece too if I wanted to join.At the very day of the auditions itself..I was still so,thinking very2 hard as whether to join or not.I am ultimately freaking out.Because I'm entering this alone.not with a crew mate joining together with me.I don't what to decide.But I thank my deepest most meaningful friend and one of my dance partner Siti for giving me the never ending support throughout the whole night before the competition itself.For convincing me hard to join the competition..And I did went for it.She's some awesome bitch you know..haha.Never have I ever experience a friend so supportive to the core such as her.I went for the auditions,it wasn't as scary as I thought it would be.And yeah I did made through the finals.I was so shocked,with my last minute routine.I still manage to pull it off..I told FIS the news and the good news of me joining the solo competition and making it through to the next round.some were unhappy that I told them late about me joining the competition.But it was ouhk,I did apologise..I hope for the better.and yeah the finals.worst,it's last minute then ever!I went to Malacca for four days.and it was a kampong!!I had limited spaces,I gotta respect the house of the family members I'm staying in.I didn't have Internet there!I was so short of time!Lucky I have my PSP with me,so I just choreograph to any songs I have in it.I returned to Singapore on the Thursday,whereas the competition is on Saturday.So I have limited time to recover and practice fully all out for the big day. So here I go.On the big day itself..I gotta give it my all,no matter the problems I have.For goodness sake,I'm going against The Locals best here.I gotta at least put up a good show.Indeed yes,things are much scarier then auditions.because auditions are closed in studio.The Singapore Leg Finals are in an open crowd.It's my 1st time competing and strutting my stuff 'ALONE' infront of a crowd!It's not just about the crowd only..It's a super huge competition.The countries all around best est are around to watch the competition.I was god damn nervous on stage.When I'm doing my stuff,I look down lots times..haha.well,I can't help myself being so nervous..

So you can see me there in action..you should have been there,to know and understand what I'm going through,haha.And as you can see below the picture of me after performing.I am very much nervous still..haha,but overall I'm very happy I joined this competition.I'm glad I did what I did and being there on that stage was a whole new experience.I'm thankful and very appreciative to the lady stranger who came up to me and said,I did a great job.haha,at least I managed to win a stranger's heart..=) thanks again Miss..

All the rushing of time,knowing such great dancers exist in my country was great.I'm missing the whole thing already..shout out to all hip hop dancers out there peace one love..keep dancing yeah.Let the dancing scene in our country stay strong.Peace!

p.s. - to check out my dance item clip.add me up on facebook,and you can view the clip at my page.. username/email-Khalis Ihsan/khalis_atseek@hotmail.com

Heartfelt

2009-11-23T02:34:00.005-08:00

Working hard is never enough.I will always want to go the extra mile for success and happy endings..But you must be careful not to be too engrossed over what you are doing.That you can't differentiate what is real and fake..You'll be so sorry that you ever got yourself into that situation.

The message above is for me myself,and others who thinks that I'm also actually referring to them too..This past 2 weeks,I've found myself gotten into that situation for 2 times straight.I am seriously all so regretful of my actions.This is how humans are.When we have good intentions,things turns out bad when we can't relate to the word 'control'.In my case,'self-control'..Dearest,do forgive me for how things turn out to be.I hope we can start afresh..The air seems to be much more clearer now..

And to this Dearest.let us all have a grip and gather everyone.let us all be as one for this task we have in hand..bring back the glory.It's coming to the end of the year.a brand new year 2010 is coming soon.let us leave this year leaving a mark to it..make something big to happen so people will always remember us for our hard work and dedication.Where our blood sweat & tears have been let out..Something bad or good may happen in the future.we just pray for the best..and for whatever happens,never regret we actually exist in this world..take our negativity,let them be memories.take our positivity,let us all cherish them..

This is a feeling where I feel them on my gut and I believe my god Allah is speaking to my mind.Not something I feel like it came in mind and I want it to come true.I never want to believe the bad will happen.But my heart is telling me to take precaution actions.Most definitely I pray & wish hard for good things to keep coming in between of bad during before and after..

This post is on 2 cases..Dearest find yourself where you stand here..

Don't fly away again dear Canary bird

2009-11-01T23:58:00.000-08:00

You have come and go in my life.How i wish one day you'd just stay right where I need you.As beautiful as a canary bird.Right here in my cage.always looking after you.Watching out for you.Your feelings,giving you freedom.But that is when you usually ran away..I just loved you too much.Every time you came back,I couldn't find the heart to just let you be.I kept wanting to believe that you've changed,but time and time again you come and go.Dear Canary,can't you just stay right here in my heart..

I know we have no strings attached.But yeah you said,you realised what you've done to me is cruel and that you still _ _ _ _ me.That's why you came back.You know you can't promise me anything,that's why you are now always more afraid of getting affectionate with me.But I am too.

I felt somethings just a little different about you.You kept coming back when I am not talking to you.I don't know.I really am afraid that you'll go away again.That is why even till now I've never get my hopes up high for you to still be around.I'm always prepared for the next day when you gonna come to me saying that you don't want this no more.But the funny thing is,why?Why do you still stay?Did you really change?I am still yet to know about that..

Only time will tell.You said you'll fight my love over anyone,and you're always envious when others are around me.And if the time come for something bad to happen,I'm always prepared..

p.s. convince me, convince me hard.

Location: School Campus Dover College West ITE

2009-10-31T09:42:00.000-07:00

sorry guys been really busy.so much have happen to me lately..I'm trying to cope with everything that I'm able to.Don't worry dearest humble readers.I am still active in blogging just been busy with dance and school.I still attend to my page and checking out my tagboard everytime.haha..I mean who doesn't right??well I'll update soon with stories for you readers to browse and read through..take care..

p.s I am so feeling the song from Faliq-Many things for us to do.not only because the song is nice & deep.but i really felt the lyric.feels just like when i am or i was maybe,in the situation?i don't know depends..as in the 'am' or 'maybe'.haha! alright2.. I MISS and Can't be bothered by lotsa people now..

just updates..

2009-10-19T02:55:00.000-07:00

It feels good to be working out again in the gym.. I can't wait to have another round of workout tomorrow with my classmate.it's really hard to maintain when you're the kinda person that needs a friend's company to train with.lol!well that's just my bad habit.well FYI I've shrink so bad that a dance friend of mine who I acknowledged him before in the past saying that he shrink badly,has actually acknowledge me back saying that i shrink!damn..what a bummer i feel..that's it,i gotta start pumping again!lols!I'm working on this arms of mine.my upper body I'm just working on it's inner strength and stamina power.lower body is totally more mass and power to make i maintain those flips i love to do.haha!but ultimately this year my goal is not getting a just lean body but a slimmer lean body.because here' the theory ya see.If i train more,I'll eat more.And if i eat more the more money that I'll to come up.and I'm totally not a working guy!I eat outside more than at home is because I spent most of my time outside having dance practice with my crew!and speaking of dance!why I'm aiming for a slim lean body is because i wanna make sure when i dance,people still see my groove and my muscles in the same time,HAHAS!y'all are sure to say that I'm FCUKING ATTENTION SEEKER!HAHS!!Well everyone is always trying to look their best all the time right?but most definitely I'm not vain...just looks conscious...

well i guess that's it,don't really have anything else in mind.oyeah..I'm thinking the next update would of my doing a photo shoot!aye??well now all i gotta do is get a good cam and a brother that would help me out?!well wish me luck for that yeah!

Hari Raya Outing on 3rd October 2009

2009-10-07T01:44:00.000-07:00

1st of all I would like to say,dearest Mama Nora.I hope you don't mind me taking this pictures from your blog since you've edited the pictures and there are much lesser of them and are much easier to handle for my own blogging.=)

This Raya outing which includes F.F.C,Dylimarcel,3OT,MArsh,Veron,Ebal,was a heck of super ubber fun time we all had.It is a very emotional,memorable & happy all at the same time.We are thankful to those who made it,and sadly not to forget those who didn't make it.Ultimately to Zeella & few others from Dylies & 3OT who didn't make it.hopefully next year will do this outing again together..

This are all who turned up for the day..Our plans initially was from Isaac's,mine,Rizuan,Seri,Nurul,Fir & lastly to Remy's place.But then we had invitations to other houses.It's kinda a last minute thing.So unfortunately some houses were cancelled or it's that we just couldn't make it.But I think everything is okay.Everyone involved or supposedly involve is okay..so yeah..

So here we go.We start off 1st at Isaac's house,where the most 1st few came.we met and had our meals took some pictures there.And it is a tradition where we Muslim's ask for forgiveness to our family & friends on this special month of Syawal.It was nice sight to see.But I didn't broke to tears,cause I think I'm just not that sensitive to be in that kinda situation easily,heehee!=D

If you realise Remy's place was different from others.Because he joined us on a later timing,and took those actions on a different house.

It's absolutely nice to see our friends from other race to be doing the same thing too.It's the bonding we have is what makes it happen..=) (our two non-Muslim friends right there,Jon & Veron)There we have Ana(Dylie's),Dinie(Dylie's),Wawa(3OT) in black.

Right back there we have Siti(3OT) in black,Hakim(3OT) in red,Marsh in dark green(blocked by Didi).

Moment's before leaving Isaac's house..

In the train to 2ND house at Bukit Batok(My crib)

At Bt.Batok MRT station.Where we were waiting for Fir,Ryna & Remy to join us.So the gang made some moves to start cam whoring,haha!

More snaps..And the bottom right pic is already at 2ND house.

Where they came and drink & ate foods and small cakes at my place.I am glad they enjoyed my place..The laughter and thrills was all a very fun time.

More snaps right before we left for Rizuan's place..

Unfortunately we forgotten to snap some pics at Rizuan's house as we are all engrossed watching old F.I.S videos.But the food was great!very satisfying!=) And so we headed to Janz(Nurul/Kikin's pal) place,because we were invited & we're gladly to come and visit.It's another great place I'd say.. There the guy in white is Janz and the lady is his sister who we call Kak Jihan

Some snaps before we head North of the country..We headed to Seri's place 1st but didn't took much picture though.Most of them were during us leaving her house.and some of the pictures weren't edited..so sorry yeah.this above is at Nurul's place.Nurul's place was superbly nice.I'd think it's a hotel though,haha.the classic way of presenting their dinner table.and the serving of food,was pretty and beautiful..absolutely love them.=)

a brilliant times we had for this Raya outing.gladly everyone had fun..And 2 other houses we went but didn't snap much pictures though.It was Ana's & Wawa's place.they have a nice place too.All of us enjoyed visiting their houses.Overall it was all a great day..hopefully a day like this comes again,not necessarily Syawal..

1st October 2009

2009-10-02T05:48:00.000-07:00

It was a day where I've made plans with Seri to go out sessionwith some friends.but I had to cancel them,due to a situation ah.My sister made plans with me.But initially it wasn't confirm wether its Thursday or Friday.I was so convinced that she gonna take a leave on Friday,cause it's near the weekend right?who knows..So i had to cancel my plans with Seri,i was so full of remorse after i had break the news to her.lucky she understand and had other friends to company her go for the session..So there I was going with the plans with my sister.We went to IMM to initailly lookout for an alteration shop.but we found out that the shop no longer do business at there.so we had no idea what to do.and were too lazy to go anywhere far.so we just hang around there.I wanted to shop for something new to wear.so we went around have a look.then we stopped at GIORDANO.i bought myself a white polo,looks cooling though and I'm just in the mood to wear polo now.and she treat me for two new bottoms.a grey bermuda,and a black long straight fit pants..It's really awesome!!I really am thankful to her..am still now!I really wanted them though,just that i don't have enough money yet to collect.really appreaciate this from my sister.then we're off to lunch at BAGUS foodcourt.

There,my sister who made the day brighter for me.I really don't know when I'm able to repay her nice treats.I'm just really glad we're not arguing or anything like that.We argue and all but we do talk yeah..as a brother,someday,I will repay her kindness better(Insyaallah).

yeah,we had some great deal of appetite for foods.but I think my level of appetite dropped since i do gyming lesser now.hehe!My sister got herself something like Hokkien Mee was it?yeah.and i got mine typical chicken rice with extra rice,haha!and we had westerns fries as side dish!and I'm beat,haha!

I've to say again that I'm really thankful for the time spent with my sister.It just made me feel good all day..

Genting Highland DCOH 09 Semi Final round

2009-10-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

The trip the kept my mind off it for awhile

As you guys know Fhunkie Stylerz went for a dance competition face off with team Malaysia at Genting Highlands for the Semi Finals.Fhunkie Stylerz & a few others dance crew from Singapore,we're repping hard for Singapore.though we're tiny,we have a big heart and support for each other.Enemy's became friends for the sake of representing Singapore.It was totally an awesome cool and treasurable times us Singapore team had.here are some pictures and updates.Well the competition some how came at the right timing.i just needed my mind off somethings,because things just came as a shock to me.i really needed some space at the point of time.well below are some pictures of time i spent at Genting with F.I.S & friends...

1st of all,on behalf of Fhunkie Stylerz,I'd like to thanks those who came up with their own money,wether by work or from their parents they get their money from.I'd still love to thank them for their sincere support to come down and really do support us.Those who stayed with us to keep our crew company throughout the whole time on Genting.The hang outs.The time when our eyes are just so tired,but we still wanna stay awake.and the times when we have to wake up due to competition schedule to follow,and we just keep staying in bed.and the Sahur & Buka for those that are fasting..Along with those fellow Muslims from other crews and supporters,all of it was a great thing to experience together.

My fellow members and I just absolutely had great times together.The hanging out in the girls room.the night camwhoring and chilling around the 1st world hotel shopping mall..damn everything so fun!And yes of course,unfortunately for our members back at home who are not able to join us for the competition.we were always wishing that you guys were down with us.would love to see you guys spending all the memoriable times together.Its a shoutout to Rizuan & Firdhaus.Insyaallah someday we'll get to do this together as a full squad.not necessarily in an overseas dance competition.we can just like go on a holiday together.and a special shoutout to Miz(Remy/Rahimi),my room mate for the time there.it was fun hanging out with you at our crib.damn,if only it wasn't Fasting Time,hahaS!yeah..,you know I know when the others don't know haha!crazy man...And also to Cherrie(Seri) for this time we spent on Genting.Our special bond with each other just grew stronger.Both of us probarbly most of the times have same minds,points of view at times.I share alot of things in common with this sister of mine.right now I trust her more then ever.I think it's a Boyanese thingy lah..HaH!!

The new friend I made with from team Singapore,espeacially Andreas(I'm your biggest fan,haha!).I'm still shy though to speak with others.they somehow intermediate me,haha.you readers know I'm a shy guy.but nevermind I'll try making friends with them the next time on the finals.and yes!we did manage to proceed to the finals,woohooo!!the only Singapore team that didn't manage to go to the finals was team Grunge.Sadly they were good,and they improved from every round from the beginning of the competition.we'll do you girls and Singapore proud ok,hope to see you girls soon again.

A whole new Fhunkie Stylerz I know.trying & keeping the bond strong everytime.Insyaallah till whenever we can still hold our name up..We are us,street is our style..

Thank you & good job Fhunkie Stylerz,DCOH 09 & Team Singapore for all the time & experiences.We all did well..

Looking forward for the Finals on December.Come down and support Team Singapore!!Fhunkie Stylerz/F.I.S & Team Singapore REPREZEN!!!

The winds of change

2009-09-16T02:51:00.000-07:00

i don't deserve this Loilatul Qadar.I figured i've to live life the hard way now.i was never a keen Muslim.I don't do what Muslim have to do everytime.not like totally,but task such like praying.i need to make the effort for Allah 1st if i ever want his care & pamper.so much obstacle,so much problems.i have to face it.ya all might think im alright,im ok.but im not.im struggling to make moves and decisions in life.this is a state where i have to come to a decision to leave what i love or not.if not,im gonna kill myself trying to juggle doin the important things which makes me and others happy and the things i love.i need a push,i need a support.i need my courage.i need to be the man i am.it is important i be that now,cause things don't always go as we plan..

i laugh when some people are selfish,thinking they have their own problems.whereas they havent see my problems is just as big as them or maybe even bigger.i don't need all the royal treatment like they indirectly saying they 'want' one,not 'need' one..even with this problems i have in hand,i still try my best to give my best to friends and family.

im sorry mother im not a sensitive person to have really comfort you when you kept crying infront of me.but i let you a listening ear,and i listen.i just pray our fate will be save by Allah.i hope his test for us will end soon.i hope the Hikmah ends soon.i know its driving you crazy ibu.im trying my best to lead you all.i just need you to know that i am thinking about you everytime.just because im not like any other sons who hugged their mother when they're sad.but i listen,i let you speak off your hate n burden caused by the Satan's doing.I want you to be strong let you feel the pain.so end of the days you have a stronger heart.i know what the person doing to you is cruel.but i need you to be strong when im not around.im hoping someone out there will be able to save me,my mum and family from this situation.I cant do much to save my family.i can just speak out and be there for every single one..i need to stabilise myself before i can firm our family walls.

i am thankful to all that appeared in my life.espeacially the ladies that use to be my lover.who they come and go.be it short while or long.the people ive met,that mould me to what i am now.make me feel and experience pain & bitter.im thankful.though theyre good or bad to me.cause without all this experiences,i'll break down right now.i can't even face the problem i have in my family right now.im so used to feeling pain,that i don't cry no more.im glad i didnt cry infront of my mum.i showed her i can be strong for her.so friends,ex-lovers,thanks you..

dancing is one of many ways im able to earn money.thats why i have to be on top everytime.i feel the need to be.so i can win that money.everything is for a good cause..i refuse to be selfish n i shall stick to my responsibilty as a big brother,the 2nd man of the family and to make my family proud of me.

nobody really know how i felt,and there's no use i hope for a shoulder to cry on.who knows they're not even really bothered to what im going through.i rather be cold then warmth..my tears are all dried up,freezed till theyre never able to come cry out of my eyes.this is who i am,get that in your head.take me for who i am.don't expect me to be sensitive to ladies anymore things like such as that for an example.cause i CAN'T.because i think you mistake me for some other man..

(this paragraph is for a few number of slaves of Allah who they claim to be.if you know who you are,find your faults in here.cause im randomly stating it.its time you learn to FEEL your wrongdoing for a change)you both,i feel disgusted so so much..knowing of you guys age.you should behave maturely by now.you have so much problems,yet you're behaving like you dont have one now.you just can't be bothered can't you.actual fact you and me,we have a problem almost so similar.you just make feel so 'ugh'!look at yourself!da berumur!so at an age already..you don't know how to settle down isit?the least make your movements right..set a good example to your younger friends and siblings will you.

to those who have a good life now.treasure them.take good care of them.you are the lucky ones that Allah has chosen.who dont have to go through all this big matters.those who feels they are getting one one now.change,start doing good.pray hard it won't come to you.be happy and keep laughing while you still can.cause the wind's just bout to change for you.this is what comes for you.Whatever the big man gives you.we cant reject it.face it with the iman we have..

take care, Assalamualaikum...

The love of Tan Hong Ming & Umi Qazrina

2009-08-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

This kid 'Tan Hong Ming' is a lucky boy for sure.And this girl 'Umi Qazrina' is lucky to have known the boy to be in her life.We're always colour blind when love blooms inside us.All we need is a little courage and bravery.But have us human taken advantage of love like this which comes clean,with full of love and loyalty.Can we appreaciate them like how we use to appreaciate them and find ourselves living together till the end of time where things as such is hard to ever come by..In a child is the only time where we usually get to see love like this.Love for Eternity? Humans still have much to learn...

What's in my mind

2009-08-23T01:42:00.000-07:00

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no time to blog properly yet.so busy.trying to make a good choreography for (insyaallah)finals round of DCOH 09.so tired,lazy,moody even more during the month of Ramadan..mind's so occupied.Exams also!!!last paper,next day already off to Genting for DCOH 09,how???pack lar siol!!There are a few good,bad,confusin & wierd distractions..hope I'll make it through just fine..

2009-08-08T09:11:00.000-07:00

k im sicked of blogger..i just typed out a whole lot of paragraphs of two pages and gone just like that?i thought got auto draft save??CB!!!!useless!i dunno wan to stop bloggin or change to new blogweb..haiz,fcuk no time to think bout this lar...waste time,lazy oready..bye3...

aiyo..

2009-07-29T21:25:00.000-07:00

damn ive been very sick lately,hopefully i don have h1n1 lar ehk..bt sirius,the possibilty is strong of having dem.coz my sch got 2 cases of h1n1 oready..well doc says the health foundation is treating h1n1 as a normal disease/sickness..so alryt..ain't gotta worry too much..just take my medicines and insyaallah i'll be fine soon.i really hope to recover soon.coz i gt performance,competition n performance again for the straight 3 days starting from friday.haiyo!!and im super sick,how?haha,ok that is that..

n wats up wiv blogger?i cant even upload pictures right now?was suppose to make a birthday wish here for Kikin's 19th birthday.but i dont feel like it,coz ltr not interesting no picture..hehe..but i did wish her a happy birthday online on msn ah.and im glad she was thrilled and laughed on my wish for her,hah!

there's many more i want to post about.regarding ridiculous haters n more..but im just too tired & lazy to continue ah..very sick ley..,sry larr...haha!ouhk see you guys soon!hopefully the next post can upload pictures sia!callo..

my blog my say

2009-07-19T23:35:00.000-07:00

currently blogging at school.can you believe it?haha..last week was all good..had fun and busy with dance too.i feel a need to stay home.well i can't forget bout my family and just wanna have fun right?there's a saying something like,don't be to happy anytime cause you never know someelse is sad just thinking of you.that goes to everyone in my life and reading this blog.be it directly or indirectly.i miss my family.argh dance has so much sacrifice to be made.realised that without my god & family's blessing,i won't even get to be where i am now..i must take some time to show my appreaciation..i must make time to do some.

and yeah,shoutout to my sistah Seri-Cherrie,gurl siti & bro wan-zie!i love this 3 peeps.the not perfect but most kind hearted soul people in this scene ive ever met!some few i could really click with and to trust them with my secrets.love ya trio.we'll meet to chill soon alright..I don't have to repeat but I'm saying it anyway.I'm down deep with FIS peeps.i don't have to say cause they know just how much i am..let's say it guys,those haters ain't got no 'Swagger like US'!call us aquintance watsoever just because we fight.yeah that is family we do argue with each other.we have our way of settling things,you have yours.we still click.so ya have no right to say us or any other crews out there.we came we represent too..address specificly if you may.

and lemme give you new wannabe babies in the scene some advise and warning.you ever THINK of picking on us Fhunkie Stylerz aka FFC/FIS.i won't hesitate to slash you off the list.yeah read on..i ain't picking a fight,but this a thing you should consider before you make those pathetic bad moves on us.ive seen the way you guys bond with other crews and i think they're really2 stupid.I'm part of the frontline of FIS/FFC defense.so ya all beat it now..

2009-07-15T02:10:00.000-07:00

Fhunkie Stylerz featuring Fir(soon brother)

Right now,i really have nothing on my mind except dance and dearest Fhunkie Stylerz..My passion to dance have been like upgraded,and I'm totally devoted to Fhunkie Stylerz.Choreographed for them this and that.Say it!I just can't stop!and guess what I'm like totally into modern dance genre now.Mazlan SICK/5678 is my super idol for it!And I'm never leaving my new school hip hop.that genre,wow Amsyar S.F.B is my idol for your info,ahakhz!i don't know why,but random i am telling you all this,lol!I hope we,Fhunkie Stylerz have stepped up enough and are able to be somewhere in future.maybe open a dance school or studio?Each and everyone of us becomes instructor,how?haha!like real sia!well,feeling2 only..maybe someday in god's will we shall..i tell you confirm awesomeness!!!Peace one love my dearest Fhunkie Stylerz!!!

Lucky and sorried

2009-06-27T23:17:00.000-07:00

Allahhuakhbar,thanks to God for the win yesterday..It was just to show people FIS is still around and people to remember us.but the Victory wasn't planned..there are other deserving winners too.you guys did magnificent..FIS i hope this will be our last appearance in mini CC dance competitions other then Cik Hasnah's organise events or competition.will appear in this kinda competitions like once in a blue moon alright?

well i busted everything on the left.and that's the thumb,hill palm,front deltoid,side ribs..and ultimately left side of the face cheek and nose..wahh..hoping to recover asap quick before Jim Beam finals..did a back layout while competing yesterday.my flip was incomplete,and resisted by the wall on the stage,then BAM flat down to the floor hitting where I've mentioned on top..really everything happens for a reason.gotta look positive.no pain no gain,learn from experiences..

alright2 I'm sure about what to blog really.so i guess I'm off now,see ya all soon..I guess we all have our own moments..

Birthday Occasion??

2009-06-23T00:19:00.000-07:00

hey yesterday i had dance practice for jim beam auditions with fis at republic poly.was hoping 3ot to be there.i want to practice presidents performance.then they last minute turn out to be at the esplanade underpass,urgh...if there's rehearsal this friday then i can't make it.i really am sorry..whatever happens.Jim Beam's comes 1st,FIS is my priority..well we had practice,and everybody was like planning to give me a surprise birthday treat..hahaS!it was so obvious i was like so can suspect it already i tell you!lols..I sound so feminine this days..lol wtv..i kinda knew everyone movement has something to do with it.so i was cautious,n i sure am correct lol!dey came singing birthday song to me from behind i knew it was coming,(lol,Jon your acting not that good enough sia!ahakhz!)at 1st i thought they wanna saboh!but eventually it was a birthday song,maybe i was a little paranoid.so i stayed.they got me an ice cream cup from ben & jerry's at 7-11.after they sang,I knew what was coming!they ask me to take the spoon off from the ice cream cup.omg..seriously guys haha!i had to make sure nobody force my face into the cup.but Amir was holding my hand back like a cop,argh!no escaping!wth I just decide to have fun.so i go,but even before i did,Seri slapped a splat of ice cream on my face!then all ran off!haha!

so that was it!who ran means they're guilty as charge!i gave FIS the run of their life haha!1st victim Kikin!haha,giving up running so soon.got her on her back i think.then Remy,argh the hardest one.he was running around this staircase place.he ran in circles,if he would have ran straight all the way,i could have caught him easily lol!so it was hard running with a cup of melting ice cream in my hand.i just decided to throw a few at him,yeah bulls-eye!still a few more,went to get the rest,I saw Amir!wth!trying to get away by saying he had nothing to do with it.RIGHT!like holding my arms tight at the back is nothing!hahahaS!!so he was already in my grasp,splat on the face!2nd face hit!then same next goes for Jon!he says "we bought you ice cream go eat lar don't throw2!"wth! NAH AMEK KAU! on the face!lol..go for Seri & Ana.both go inside toilet,think i fucking care?I know nobody inside sia!so went in threw it from the top!quickly i went out before people misjudge me from doing anything fishy,lol!Zeila aiyo,another dumb2 can summore sit one place to hide you know!lucky for Fir Rage ah.aiyo I go 'pancit' already!so I stopped..but Abg Wan was really lucky I dunno why i didnt go for him.but lucky i didnt.cause he's gonna go inside camp.he'll get a little fed up if he smells ice cream all over.but he's smart!he stand near our shirt for Jim Beams aud.so i can't hit him.If i hit those shirt with ice cream everybody's gonna scold me on my birthday man!and worst the shirts are all white!haha,too bad Abg Isaac,3Ot miss out the fun.would have attack them too!lol,they dodged my Wrath-ness! well after that everybody settled down,and went home,thanks again FIS my trueness family!you guys effort kept me smiling to myself on the way back home in the bus man!thanks again!it was a whole lot of fun time we had yeah!!=D

2009-06-17T23:43:00.000-07:00

I would really love to catch the movie transformers 2 revenge of the fallen.especially now that my birthday is coming up close,hehe!though the movie come to theaters 2 days after my birthday.really hope to get to watch the movie man!damn,you wanna know why?because there's Megan Fox in the movie!she is absolutely glamorous!here's a picture of her,in a decent side of her as you can see!go catch the movie in theaters this June 24th people!A family movie not to be missed!

on the down low during free time

2009-06-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

yoah,whats there to blog about now eh..lets just start with whats running through my mind.

ouh yeah the couple of days been pretty filled with just dance pracs and all.so what do i do now that 3 weeks holidays is here?herm i can workout! yeah! 1st thing tomorrow morning,jogging cardio!gotta hit the body weight training!i must wake up,please!its the best time of the day to exercise!the rest of the day is gonna be just hot and sizzling!

ouh yeah and i can't wait to be breaking with Luminiq's again!it's really Bboy knowledge gain hanging with them crew! alrights man,i really got nothing on my mind,i might as well just sign off! cao readers!thanks for dropping by!

Whatever you did to us,it will all comes back to you

2009-06-07T21:08:00.000-07:00

-1stly,I'm glad you actually came.I really respect the courage you showed to just attend to us even though have to be dragged by our leader.but at least you showed up.we all good.but I just hope no unfortunates for you to come.It's still hard for me to let go.Even more on the way you talk to us.But I just needed to cool down,and its all good.I'll see ya around...

-You there,I really felt bad about you knowing the truth.but I don't get the point of telling you when me and her were never together..but I'm glad you know somehow..but what beats me that it really,should have come from either me or her mouth...NOT from HERs??!!

-I feels so betrayed.i can't believe it,you cut me deep.no matter how much you defended us.that you were there for us.but,just among us,I still gonna hate for what you did.you have little sense of loyalty..I never forgive easily and i never forget.you just cause my trust to you.damn,i feel so disappointed in you.here i was taught that i could really get you change.but it's just really can't be..whatever you did,it'll all will come back to you.

-And as for you,sorry i had to take out those previous post readers.i just feel that for what's obvious,she's an ass to me.sorry i have to say it.this is an obvious reason out of anger i'd say.I'm just too furious!urgh!!go get all the boys you want.hurt them all.for this phrase i learnt of,whatever you do bad on purpose to someone it all will comes back to you.It WILL,just so you know,it maybe will be on someday that you've regretted your actions and turn over a new leaf,god might just want those things to hit you back at that very point of time.and by then you'll be wondering did god ever really forgives you?so the one advise is,CHANGE NOW.before god makes a FIXED FATE for you.don't wanna be with anyone for the moment huh?yeah for sure that's right,pfft!

*say your prayers,before prayers for you are said.when you let that happen,means you just can't be bothered.and when that's true,you're sending homecoming regards to hell.

all that was lost,is coming back in my head.

2009-05-31T01:21:00.000-07:00

alright today i got the time and space to explain and blog on everything and anything briefly...

ouhk,so i took off the post cause you told our leader the truth..that you really leaving us.at least now i know you don't really intend to leave us hanging.cause you know we said this many times we won't ever wanna say you're out.and so i heard you said to our lead,that you gonna make it official and come to us when you gonna do that.ouhk we'll see if that's really true..when you do that,i wont have anything against you anymore.i hope you keep your word,cause i know you respect Isaac a lot.so you told him the truth.so we'll see yeah,there's no use i make this such a biggie anymore.I'm really lazy already to talk about it.

I'm like all over into Bboying now haha!

one side eyebrow going up,and nodding. hmm...

2009-05-22T18:26:00.000-07:00

hmm,gone and here again...I wasn't involving myself with love from the last time i posted on my conversations with my thoughts about love.and there it is coming back again.why eh?well its not exactly like I'm in love or anything but.there is a connection on the subject..

recently,my use to be dating girl got a break up with her boy.wow that would sound much what i would love to hear when i was still hating what she did to me.but now,i just seem not to be bothered by it.but for the fact I'm posting this up,i wanna tell her she's young.she gotta be wise in making decisions and not be too picky.if she thinks she's not ready,then don't TRY to be in a relationship for awhile.hey it hurts you know when you do give people a heartbreak?you think Ive let go of you from my mind?it was just a month back.i ain't done yet.i wanted to see you fall,but that was before.now I'm just really more to just wanna see how you do living your love life.somehow i pity the guy you break his heart.cause i understand what he feelseven though we were never officially together.i think i definitely can guess how you make his heart break.but this goes to the both of you use to be couple.what goes around comes around,and that's karma for you..please la.have a sense of pity when comes to breaking somebody heart..you say it and then left all so fast,makes it look and sound like you did it with ease...so I'm done for that...

and as for you I'm just gonna stick around.i don't want to try too hard already.it sucks having false hope over and over again.if you're not the one,then you're just not meant to be.

I'm thinking and living life

2009-05-16T20:38:00.000-07:00

alright,i was chilling with my school peeps few days back.nothing interesting happen,we just joke around all that,the normal stuff people when hanging out.but i just snap a few photos of us while chilling,just to keep myself occupied.you can check my facebook out for pictures of us chilling.(go go!email add still same)It's been awhile since i stepped in Vivo to chill from after finishing school,with a number of friends..hmm school's gonna be tough now.i really mean it.but i feel like joining Suntec solo dance competition.doing that,i will have to commit myself.cause i really need to come out with an outstanding performance.i know in dancing wise alone,I'm nowhere awesome.but i gotta keep myself up to standard by being fresh and fun.that's the hard part.and for all that Ive mentioned,if i decide to do them,I'm gonna miss out a lot from class,and it ain't easy to manage my time,for real!I'm a ITE Higher Nitec student.I'm just as busy as poly students.this ain't secondary school standard of study man.i gotta study to stay monitored by the government.if you all know what i mean..school is one of the only way for my life to still be filtered off from the adult & working life.unless i wanna go serve the National Servicemen yeah..that,is another story..urgh,this things makes me go crazy!will see what my flow would lead me to alright..

And yesterday, i had practice for Fhunkie Stylerz and breaking with Hatri.damn its really complicated to juggle practice with two crews.its not hard,just complicated.and i saw a face which i really fucking am not in the mood to see at our practice venue.well i just tolerated the scene and go do my thang..well 1st we went to see Vougelicous perform at Clarke Quay at a park.met up with my sister love Seri 'Aslina'(LOLS!) & Ana 1st.then 3ot,Vougelicious all come down.get to see Zeila,finally.1st thing i saw her,i say"What's up stranger?",with a 'what' look on my face.Haha!padan muke!proud already what,that lady buddy of mine.never call,never text,got problem don't want share..after watch Vouge perform,then we headed down to practice at esplanade underpass.FYI,already at the park i saw the thing i mentioned above which I don't wish to see.urgh,how great..
I plan to snap a few pics so i can post up my blog and facebook.but how unfortunate,battery gone dead on me.well that's kind of it.kinda lazy to blog a lot..and yeah!if not right,Beth could have join me hang out at my practice.but i dunno la,i think she paisey or lazy or what.but last Friday the babe paitao me..haha!just kidding prettyhead!=D

(before)(after)

alright2,check the new dork down the block!he knows how to dress up now!what a RETARD,LOL! !

Thoughts

2009-05-11T02:54:00.000-07:00

K - Khalis

C - Concious

K - hmm..

C - what's with the sigh?

K - nothing just thinking...

C - on what?

K - not sure..

C - girl?

K - hmm.yes i guess..

C - why which girl now?

K - notin,no girl.just that..

C - just what?!

K - aiyo..

C - you weak ah!

K - siala what weak?!

C - you're so weak,that everygirl you've ever been with steps on you & doesnt appreaciate you!

K - aye..siala,last warning ehk!

C - correct wat??that's what even some of your friends says bout you.

K - ...

C - haizz....

K - den must do wat?

C - time for you to get buck!

K - like?

C - i dunno,go figure ah.i just randomly say it...

K - yar right,hopeless...

C - hehe...

moments later...

C - come on bro get a grip,and get yourself something to do for now.for the moment don't think about relationships.later false hope again,like the current one..

K - yar correct ah.im gonna Bboy to keep it off my mind.but eh?how you know about the current one?

C - of course ah,say i am you what...

K - (coming back to reality again) (-_-) ~~~~

* Stop trying,the time will come for you to be in love again.have some faith & patience for yourself.stop killing yourself.God will set the time for you soon enough Insyaallah...

today

2009-05-01T01:39:00.000-07:00

performing tomorrow for breathe auditions at the Heeren shopping Mall,I think.lol...and guess what,i busted my right elbow 2 days before performance.and that was during the practice itself.guess i was too excited to session breakdancing with the peeps again,i overworked my poor right arm..hmm i think the air chair move worsted the condition,then the straight 3 times back hand spring finalise the pain with a big full stop.giving it a rest now.hoping that there's enough time to heal and recover before tomorrow's performance.we're last year 1st runner up.so have gotta make it look good!

and yar,damn ive been busy..till i forget to text her to return my hoods.hmm,when am i having my hoodie back if i myself am not free.she better not throw it away.if she did,that's gonna cost her big time,and definitely..."you know what why don't you pass it to somebody you know that knows about us,so i can have them hoodie back"urgh,what trouble am going through just for a hoodie.

Need to be the fresh i am!

2009-04-24T06:07:00.001-07:00

alright tomorrow will be another session of dance and practices with dear FIS members..well Remy is not gonna be there,cause he's busy practicing for battle of the year with Luminiq.And DAMN was Remy awesome at the semi final for SBDC bboy category battling against the collaborated crew i mentioned few post back.Saw the video on Youtube.Can't remember who uploaded them.damn no wonder Luminiq wants him in.I think Remy outshine them all man!and he's the man of the match,or better like,man of the battle!haha..yeah,back to what i was talking,he's not gonna be there for prac.And i can't learn some new flips.kinda getting sick and tired of doing just a back somer.not saying i got only that flip up my sleeves.those who knows me,they'd know i got a couple more flips.but the problem is i need something new and fresh.i gotta feel fresh!been dying to learn the side tuck flip.well i know the technic though,but i definitely need motivation and a little push.Remy's somebody good at that part when come to teaching me new flips or moves,mastered the gainer once my bro taught me,but gone again.maybe I'll get some click of pictures on tomorrow's session or whatsoever ah..any bboys wanna drop by tomorrow?Amir,Khai,anyone?anithing please do tag leave comment or best beep me if you can! chao...

I need to chill but not now i guess! =)

2009-04-23T07:43:00.000-07:00

ouhk 1stly again,how about this..I'm nobody's fool,& you're definitely being totally selfish.yeah i shown a little desperation in the beginning.but its you babe.it's all you..you just can't tolerate a little bad point.people who you 'claimed' you love before are changing for you,you chose to walk away.so who's desperate to leave now.and what flow is that?more like a current I'd say.changing your so call flow as and when you like.with that ways and that very little tolerance from you,i don't see things going far.heh,I feel so toy-ed already.should have known you were that once again temporary girl appeared in my life.thought she was special,thought she's my flavour..but for the final outcome coming out from the oven,there's no way I'm savouring your kind of taste..yeah she pretty and all,my standards are way up high by the way.so this girl,she must really known how to bring her image that makes me go crazy for her.but 1 thing i don't think you can bring is the quality of being that image.sad how much i still miss it,i just hate that quality,whereas it's your personality.and i don't think i can tolerate that too.don't tell me to go back to her.i dare you to go meet her and show who you are and tell her everything she needs to know.how i cant wait to hear what's gonna come out from your mouth.or maybe I'd even get to know whether you really even loved me before eh?

guess what,this wouldn't start if you didn't label what i lack in your blog.so why not start being considerate here alright?yeah I'm sensitive,and I'm a Cancerian.We're gonna see each other everytime in this industry.Get use to it.

Random Day Today

2009-04-17T04:21:00.000-07:00

alright...wanna blog about what eh..hmm..well maybe i should start update you guys on what i did today..Met Joanne at school today,as she wanted to meet me.I was kinda excited to meet her though,don't know why..And i have to attend a briefing with the Inspire Club.But i have to go for my Friday prayers 1st.I was with Joanne before,planned with her to go home together or anywhere together later on..Well still,it's a maybe.But before i left for Friday prayers i asked her,is she gonna wait even after she finish her stuff to do at school.She said ya.so I left my PSP with her so that she can keep herself entertained while waiting for me and her stuff to be done..yeah so i went off,then texted her I'll be back soon around 2+ maybe.she said ok no worries.so I'm guessing we're still on.So when I came back,got to know her BF was there,waiting for her..Wait I thought she was single again?fish dammit..In any case,I thought she had the intention to go home with me?She should have told me earlier her BF was coming.I wouldn't put high hopes on it..I was so demoralised man..Didn't even want to attend the Inspire Club briefing,and i did..Well I'm glad Sheema understood..thanks babe..Just thought of doing something else to get the unlucky thing that's happen off my mind..And how lucky.Luckily Taufiq,my dear friend got plans to go to Vivo.Go repair his HP..Then just chill around there for awhile..wah,felt so much relaxed after chilling...suddenly was thinking what's Beth doing right then.She replied me saying she was just about to head to sleep...wah..,I sure have some luck with the ladies..Well I guess It's Friday,and It's suppose to be Ladies night wasn't it?That's why my mind was all about the ladies today..Well maybe I'm wrong about the Ladies Night part..just happen to think about it..

Well I wanna eat now,really2 hungry,and I drained my energy today on what,I also don't know...my fingers are shivering as I'm typing right now..So,gotta go!

Back to school!!!

2009-04-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

Faizul,Alif,Din,Me(Khalis),Taufiq(Fiq),Muhaimin(Min)

1st of all,yeah2..if I'm a mother fcuker,then i fucked your mom dudesS...hahaa!peace out losers!

alright,this is the 1st time of the year I'm stepping in the school gym AGAIN for this year and after a long time.Damn i nailed it!I thought i sucked by now,but not bad.I guess my training during the holidays paid off just to stay in shape again..really cool to meet everybody in the gym again..but man oh man.It's time me and Fiq pick up the slack of this gym again!they need get buck soon man!I'm not gonna get muchly involve in being the committee member again.I let the juniors do it this time round..I'm just gonna make sure everybody get to reach their goals this year.Because that's what i plan to do for myself this year..

alright...this is a miracle..I'm not with her anymore,as in the closeness of our relationship like before.And I'm not even depressed about it.I guess maybe it's what I wanted all this time eh?maybe the reason is she kept me hanging all this time that's why.My mind was totally occupied on her.Now that she realised it too and left,I'm so happy I got to live life just the way I want it again.Well i just wish to say to you,thanks for ever letting me feel what it's like to have someone by my side again.But I'd have to say,nothing went wrong,only you just didn't want the commitment.You still wish to have fun and live your youthful life.So I understand,and im totally ok about that.You should have thought about that 1st the next time you wanted to have a fling with anyone else..For sure yeah,I definitely missed ya,but things just wasn't meant to be..thanks again for dropping by..

Yoah my Fhunkies!i am definitely looking forward for the FIS outing this weekend.Yoah my bitches,you wanna join Suntec dance competition this year?I plan we should get a head start!I'll see you guys this weekend at the City A~Ayts!we'll chill around and session out If feel like it alrights!duh i know you guys.You ain't up for sessioning at the dancefloor anyway..lols!I'll see everyone soon ayts caO!thanks for dropping by haters! hahahaA!!

preparing for 1st day of school

2009-04-12T04:22:00.000-07:00

- Calling in sick,looking forward working out at the school gym tomorrow to get better again.

Preparing for 1st day of school,and hell I'm Excited!Woohoo!Meeting friends again!Well maybe some new students will join our class,goody!new friends are welcome!wow,so excited for this new course!finally i got something to occupy myself for the whole next 2 years,then thinking of going army all that,haha!

I still got to get my hair a cut.I thought of going for a layer since i never tried before.planning to keep the length.if I'm not lucky,I'm gonna go for a hairstyle,how do you spell it?Marlett??hehe..Ouh shoots!!I still have yet to get those forms signed!gotta wait for my parents to get back home from dinner with my brother outside!

wow..Im going school again huh..Can't believe it!After months of slacking all that...Finally i get to do something useful again then staying at home!haha..alright then people,thanks for dropping by.do tag by and attend my mini survey alright!I'll be updating soon!Insyaallah!

Signing out

LOVE

2009-04-09T23:24:00.000-07:00

I love this picture my friend send me..looks,pretty much me..hehe.If only i got the money to maintain this look everytime,haha!wear a Rolex,Zara top and pants..with a standard Nike sneakers lols...the hiphop style is never gonna be gone i tell you,haha...the picture was taken during graduation day for my Nitec Security Technology course.09 is here,that means time for a new course..hoping for more brighter times to come!

baby forgive me

2009-04-08T20:47:00.000-07:00

-I would never try to deny,that you were my whole life.cause if you ever let me go i would die,so i won't front.i don't need another woman,i just need your all or nothing.cause if i got that ,and I'll be straight,baby you're the best part of my dreams...

*Chris Brown

this is the problem with me..yes,i know we're still in an open relationship..but you all should know how much she means to me by now.and you all know me..i would never do anything bad or terrible to someone whom i really care about..well what is the problem with me.i care too too much...and I'm afraid i must admit,I've made myself worried too much.and Ive positively hurt her in a way by showing her my bad habits of my good behaviour..i just hope she forgive me...please dear i really am sorry..i know she needs her space for her dance.yeah i understand her,cause I'm a dancer myself...but it's just that it beats me badly just thinking bout her everyday..worrying,wondering this and that..cause all I'm able to do is just staying home and doing nothing..i just cant find myself something to get occupied with..i truly love her..i know she does,she said it to me lots times...but I'm just a stupid naive guy who keeps worrying myself...maybe i got trust issues with the females due to bad memories of having a bad relationship in the past...somebody gotta guide me.i think i do need help in this relationship thing.cause i don't see and A for me in handling relationships..i just love and care for her too much,that I'm doing this to myself..Ya Allah please help me,please...she's everything good that's ever happen to me..don't make me lose her...I swear I'll do anything for you baby...

Good Luck shouout!

2009-04-06T00:33:00.000-07:00

Good luck shout out to (LMQ)Luminiq,(RSC)Rhythmic Style Crew,(FTC)Floor Thecnics Crew(to Daniel especially),and a few other guys like Akmal WanSki and many more from a collaborated crew i think..Not sure whether (RF)Radikal Forze Crew and Enemy Ground Crew joined?Well if they did,yeah a good luck shout out to you guys for the SBDC(Singapore Best Dance Crew) competition Bboys category..Why them?Because i know this guys and some Ive made friends with.they taught me a couple of things about break dancing..so yeah good luck again.May the best Crew win!

Go SBDC Bboys category!

updates(howdy??) =D

2009-04-06T00:16:00.000-07:00

what's up people!haha! how you viewers and readers doing?heh..I'm good,been slacking off with dancing so far...but been doing good with my workout trainings so far!I'm impressed and satisfied with the results Ive made..awesome,yeah..this year I'm going for a lean body(beach/model body).no more going for that lean bodybuilders body..just open my eyes that 2009 is a year of money..money is absolutely precious!therefore the harder i train,the more i eat...uh2,I'm saving babey!haha..well I'm going on easy on dance.taking things slow..i just wanna live my life this year,well this season maybe..wanna try stop living my dream/passion for awhile..maybe get a girl by this year?haha!progressing...heehee...insyaallah..no high hopes again.=)

this time I'm trying my best to go take care of my family and lovers.MUST have a job!don't care if I'm schooling or what.just gonna try get a part time job.was thinking of retails?haha..well will see yeah..you guys must make sure I've a job alright!haha,keep tagging me bout my job intention every month.lols!like that's ever gonna happen...alright see you guys around..peace,Assalamualaikum...

back! haha!(note this blog is mistakenly post up way down.do read starting from the post below)

2009-03-30T19:15:00.000-07:00

yoah fellas,im back from my boyan visit!woah wat amazing country and island too!met lotsa nice and friendly people..the only thing that sucked is i dont understand thier origins language.lucky they speak indonesia lil at times.the place is really fascinating if you're adventorous that's if.cause its very kampong like(like duh).nice lakes,high hills,mountains,padi fields and desert..there was a secret mini hot spring up in the mountains.how cool huh?the food was great very healthy.but the rice absolutely amazing!with just a palm grasp of rice.you're through eating!cause they're fresh!all the starches is still on the rice..woah,i gain lotsa protein for sure.a lil less intake of oil...damn no wonder the farmers all their body are sculptured fit!for real,even the teens!damn how envy i am,lols!well what can i say,they at the farm,of course their body will turn out that way..and for sure friends,don't be shocked when you meet me soon.cause im sure gonna look alot more tanner...i got no time to stay under shades once you're out adventuring at a village,haha!

2009-03-16T22:48:00.000-07:00

it's settled..too bad you haters are disappointed..without or with me FIS is always gonna be ok..

and for you ah just shut the hell up...you're just an overgrown wuss who cant act like an adult...go get a life and handle your own things hater...

I'm saying I CAN bring it! (failed)

2009-03-08T03:02:00.000-07:00

Sorry what a disappointing thing.I can't make it.But the guys don't wish to continue...so it's totally cancelled sorry people.no news on that...only disappointments...=(...

In the name of Allah!

2009-03-02T06:56:00.000-08:00

In the name of Allah I'm glad he the almighty,stopped me from what i was about to do...though the emotion drives me to,i know it wasn't worth it..forgive me god for my sins and the lack of Iman..i now see your true power Allah.guide me in life always god.let me learnt from my mistake.i apologise to the one I've caused trouble..in the name of Allah i repent over my mistakes...forgive me dear one.for you are my only way of clearing my name from list of sins I've done...i wish you luck in life.i pray you have your courage & freedom as we speak till the end.i pray for your good life...again forgive me of my mistakes.i definitely am disappointed of letting the Satan becomed success in doing his job in bringing people joining him in hell..i truly regret and sorry..dear god bless me...

2009-02-25T21:29:00.000-08:00

Fhunkie Stylerz(Remy's not in the picture)

1st story

don't worry bro,someday we'll get a picture with full force with you in it too.alright..i really gotta tell you sister.yeah below i blogged about how angry i am with you.But like i said,i don't hate you.just mad at the actions u choose to do.So now i am telling you we had always never stop believing that you will come back someday.we just hope and pray that you will.none of us said you're out.so please do come back.plus i want Fhunkie Stylerz to try and go international.and i want you in it with us too..with been practicing & dancing alot lately.it just feel ain't right when you're not around.I'm not the only one who feels this way ok?our captain wants you back.we all miss ya.i put my pride down,on behalf Fhunkie Stylerz.Anything at all past or present mistakes,we're sorry..Cause we will always forgive your wrongs.We're family girl,just come home Lydia.

2nd story

alright babe,you're killing me.you're like Jenny,the girl that Click 5 mentioned..i don't know how to treat you now.i gave you my care and concern.you responded well.when i tried get rid of you from me head(fyi it worked),you came back chatting saying that you missed me..?hmm..you confused me babe.for all i know.im gonna relax and let you decide what you wanna do..i know you're having o'lvls.but the least make up your mind gimme a sign for a hoping future or maybe not that is.whatever itis..i wanna find a girl that's just right for me to understand and get along..finding a lady,when im not really finding one.get it?don't get it nevermind(slowpoke,lol)...i chill out 1st alright.i should be looking forward to other ways of knowing someone special.can't be on you everytime..

my indirect message for you,you should go hear click 5 - jenny.just the chorus part..

STRAIGHT UP

2009-02-20T00:21:00.000-08:00

THIS IS FOR YOU SISTER!I ONCE CALLED YOU SISTER.BUT SEEMED LIKE YOU DON'T TREASURE MY CONCERN.I KEPT CALLING YOU BACK.I SUPPORTED YOU AS A FAMILY MEMBER.THIS IS HOW YOU TREAT OUR SIBLINGS??BY BADMOUTHING US TO OTHERS??

LEMME ASK YOU SOMETHING,WHY CANT YOU PERSONALLY ATTACK ME?WHY MUST IT ALWAYS BE OUR YOUNGEST SIBLINGS YOU ATTACK?WHY THE FEMALE?GET THIS STRAIGHT,YOU MESS WITH ONE YOU MESS WITH ALL!YEAH FAMILIAR THAT LINE?CAUSE ONE OUR SISTERS MENTIONED THAT PHRASE BEFORE RIGHT?I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU GONNA GET TO READ THIS SHIT.BUT STRAIGHT UP THIS IS FOR YOU!

WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT??AKU DARI NAK TOLONG KAU BERBAIK BALIK DENGAN FAMILY KITA,SAMPAI AKU BOLEH BENCI DENGAN KAU!DA PUAS AKU NAK BERBAIK HATI DENGAN KAU!STRAIGHT UP AGAIN WHAT YOU ARE DOING IS ALL BULLSHIT!

WHAT FCUKING CREDIT LA ALL THIS KANINAH AH??YOU WANT YOUR CREDIT,YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO.DO THE RIGHT THING.EVEN TILL NOW I NEVER STOP BELIEVING IN YOU.WE NEVER EVEN MENTION A SINGLE WORD SAYING YOU'RE OUT OF OUR FAMILY.SO IF YOU COME TO YOUR SENSES,DO THE RIGHT THING.IF YOU'RE SINCERE,I WILL HELP YOU.IF NOT,THEN JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE.I WONT SAY FCUK OFF,IS BECAUSE I DON'T HATE YOU.BUT JUST MAD AT YOUR ACTIONS.NOT ANOTHER NEGATIVE WORD FROM YOU ON US.OR ELSE,YOU'RE JUST FORCING ME TO CAST YOU OUT FROM MY FAMILY TREE.YOU FEEL THAT?YEAH,IF YOU FEEL IT.YOU BETTER DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

P.S. please anyone who felt this message to him or herself.Please, think about about what you're assuming. If there's nothing to do with you, DON'T get involve. Anything related to this post must be commented here and only here,NOT on my TAGBOARD or you'll just kiss your tag a DELETE from my tagboard.

Yeah, this is news for haters,but this is life.I'm defending my family that we are not in wrong.We have honour,respect it haters, and yours will be respected by us and others.

random days

2009-02-16T22:31:00.000-08:00

hey lately there's nothing much to blog about..none pictures taken during occasions or on outing...but well for sure i went to do my hair straightening..but it seems like useless.its no difference.i mean of course there is a little difference yeah..but nothing impressive,lol!but seariously..i'll see you guys around!peace...

wah,crap...

2009-02-13T22:42:00.000-08:00

valentine's day,and im at home...(14.42)
apela nasib,'me yow' girl fren...i wonder did i even spell that chinese word right.. siala,i'm really3 random right now...

New Chapter for this story

2009-02-10T21:11:00.000-08:00

Hello...i went over to her place yesterday,just to past a gift for awhile..bought for her a speaker pillow,figured that she always listens to her mp3 every night.maybe now she can listen to her mp3 till she goes to sleep..haha.its a valentine gift for her.i know,its really early.but I'm just afraid if i cant see her this weekend.and the other reason not giving her the present on valentine itself is because,don't want her to go through the trouble holding it everywhere we go,that's IF we went out on a date.

Well i manage to dig somethings from her.i made her say her opinion on our friendship.she wanted to be friends only.good,initially that was my plan.though I've started to go fell for her charms already..but i mean,come on,boy meets girl,what would you possibly think would happen..but it's ok.imma keeping it slow..I'll see where destiny lies.i wont put hope on this relationship.she'll just be my closes friend.I'll be truthful to her,she be to me..the love will never ends that way huh?haha...let's just see what things would flow to be...

Go Freakzy Nutz!!!

2009-02-09T00:20:00.000-08:00

shit.this is the result of updating blog seldomly.u got so many things goin on during the days past.and when u wana post dem up.u just dunno where to start first or u 4get the whole damn ting..haiya.READD this,let me RANDOMLY update u.yesterday when to bishan junction 8 to support Freakzy Nutz in their dance competition during the semi's and they made it through for finals,pfft!shit its the freekzy's we're tokin here..they're one of the dopest in this dance industry man!but to go and support dem in the finals ill b like 50:50,haha!shit 15$ per entry,deyre killing man!but watever itis,Freakzy Nutz and Fhunkie Stylerz are fam!get it haterz! we're the well known "F" crews in this industry!

shit and to update u with the other things.i just cant remember...aiya...
nvm,Valentine's coming up,who's your valentine guys???haha..cya around guys..

the start for a beginning

2009-02-05T03:18:00.000-08:00

lets do a lil catch up on what's been missing in my life...hmm yesterday was graduation day for my security technology nitec course in ite...i met all my school friends again.wow dey're all looking so good!really!im not saying just for the sake of saying!it's really true!my classmate diana,she was really quiet and is always dressed like pure school girl coming to school evrytime.but on yesterday graduation,she was absolutely gorgeous!i mean it!everyone was looking really fabuloso!even our friends from another class too!some dressed like celebrity!awesome man..,i gotta say that..after that 3 of one of my closes frens from class,decides to go watch the movie underworld.initially plan to watch at town area,but fare rides just dont seem to be enough.so we went to vivo.but we gotta cancel,cause the movie is not even out yet,haha!could have watch other movies that's available but just not our kind of ting to watch.so 4 of us,we chilled at long johns for fauzan's later lunch,then head to a coffee cafe place for fauzan's coffee drink.the rest of us just accompanied him cause we can't afford to buy anything there..but i must say the best part was at the cafe.it was superb!there would be where i'll bring my date to just have a drink sit chat and chill..wow they played jazz and 80's music there!how cool huh?!just a place that i ever dream of going!there are some pictures during the occasion being tooked by my friends.i'll upload them up when i'll get them soon!

and yeah bout today..did nothing but rot the whole day.i was praying for luck that i would get to see the girl that im dating again.hopefully she finishes school early today,but nah just my luck.and the saddest thing is she told me she had to cancel out tomorrow's plan of meeting up.cause she got something to do.wah heartbrken sia..but endure2,must have patience..then she confirmed she cant go out with me for both the days of the weekends.wah that one's said already,im like demoralised totally sia.for a second,i thought she's giving me the signal of not being interested in me.but she cheered me up with a msg saying among all the guys she knows,im the most understanding guy she ever met.honestly.and she find it good to know that im like that.that's what she said..wah a lil soul was given back to me sia.i kept thinking,nvm there's hope.i just gotta be positive,but i donwana get my hopes up too high.cause i know this things takes time.i just gotta play the early game of love for awhile before things gets sizzling...i must have faith.i can only hope that i would be able to see her again this coming tuesday..i can just pray hard things would go well again...

2009-02-03T19:07:00.000-08:00

this was during the time a few member of my crew and 2 other dancers which are also part of the fam,was dancing as a backup dancer for a local rapper named Shigga Shay in his performance.It was on the Live and Loaded show.its a music competition,i think?he said to me he was performing,but seems like his competing.well i don rili care.earlier the day,things weren't goin smooth with mediacorp.we were starting to hate the way they handle tings.but then we cant really do anything bout,the least is just to argue,but end to nowhere its worthless trying to.so we just decided to go with watever we came up and we make ourselve to be having fun for the rest of the day.yar!i mean like rili ah ehk!from the beginning of Marsh's silliness of the differences between a signal and sign.to video blogging..sheesh!im not sure wether if you guys caught me or the other dancers on the show,im sure you would catch Shigga Shay.unless you didnt watch the show.everything was doing really fine at the end.and the guest per4ming band,A.V.A - A Vacant Affair..was awesome man,they were like real rockers on stage!though im hiphop,i still have ears for rock too ya know,hehe...and the pictures were from the makeup and hairdo room at mediacorp.wah go in ah,got so the many celebrity from chan 8.zoe tay la,dunno who la,but i recognise the face ah(cause got watch chinese drama bah..).and they straightened my hair siax!!!waliandey HANDSOME sia Khalis!!like CINER BENG AH!!sirius!everybody also say,i had to aggree too!well,wat can i say,i have the initials of a straight hair ok!(ehk sirious2,not lying...)i go play with indian hair oil when i was a young kid la,thats y i have curly hair sey!stupid young me ah,cant even differentiate between hair oil and brylcreem...haha ok man,i guess that's for this part of the blog!

woohoo!!!

2009-02-02T02:53:00.001-08:00

shit!i can't believe i actually went out with her today!aw man...yeah! wait3 i got this check this out,an amateur rap from me...

i got this girl from another world
she's so fine,yet to be mine
me and her getting tings on
wondering wen,we'll finally gt in e zone
thou she rocks my shoes
Wat will it take for her to be my boo?
can i win this hard rocker?
well pray hard cause i know I'm a charmer...hahaA!!

damn that was nowhere near the awesome local rappers in the rapping scene,haha!but i tried my best!i hope Jay Z,Kanye West and Richard Jansen love to hear them,LOL!!!
And yeah,this girl she rock hard like a rocker.though her ting is not my favourite gendre,but it wont be an excuse for me to get to know her!she is fly!i just hope this is it,and i wish i finally get the happiness i long seemed to be seeking of!peace...

Haiyooh....

2009-01-29T21:21:00.001-08:00

shit,i don't know what happen..i suddenly got all my contacts and tagboard back..haha!so cool!!

2009 a new life...07 & 08 is nothing but the past...im all fresh and clean for now...striving to be the best dancer within self,yeah!that's my goal this year!! and hopefully get a bike license by this year...awesome!

alright...

2008-12-11T08:02:00.000-08:00

alright guys..sorry been late.you all know me i don't update often..imma busy maan 'lasey'!haha anyway...its the season's of competition all that..imma get real busy soon...and im doing this project dedicated for my dearest fhukie stylerzz...dey're gona be apart of it.dey'll soon realise wat deyre doing if dey are willing to contrbute...its gona be dope.well i'll make sure it'll be!!man as im typing i feel like telling u guys what itis...but i cant,dearest members are reading my bloggy too...but soon it'll come out as 'the ultimate fhunkie stylerz',name of the project(name not confirm).in god's willing this project will happen if him up there gives me the support and strength and courage to do this..

and jyah i wont add if ya all just come to view randomly..this goes to blog and friendster users...

HELLO3!!!

2008-11-26T00:18:00.000-08:00

hello fellow humble readers...so sorry for being m.i.a. for so long!well i've been busy with my school industrial attachment..i've been so way un-updated...and my life been so slacking off the ice!well i've been trying to catch up with life and all my daily routines in life now.and it has been pretty hard...catching up with friends from the comeback.going to the gym..it was quite a struggle.but there's been an improvement so far...i've been hanging too with my cuzz and a members lil bro..so here are some updates on the new me...once again sorry for the m.i.a and enjoy reading through...
well since i went to attachment right?i got some salary of course..and even more my crew won 1st runner up on a dance comp.so i would be expecting more money to come..and with no hesitation,i went to get some things that are pretty much me.and for the 1st time i bought something that is expensive.like the dope brown top im wearing.. this was when i hang with my cuzz and Rizuan FIS lil bro,Zul..right before my session with Remy FIS.

as how i promised myself to be better everytime a new day of dance comes.i was practicing with friends.i got some new moves i just tried out.but im still far from what i wana be as a dope dancer..so this was a breaking session with my crew mem Remy..

so we decided to session Krump later on,which end turning up into a battle..pfft!and boy it wasn't friendly cause dissing was occured..lol.so that was some day we all had.

and to never forget.the gym at my school.ive been slacking for so long,that my body's going down.but,WTH so did the club in school!well what can i say.the seniors aren't there to keep the club in tight condition.you know how i know?my last workout was before my school industrial attachment starts.and that is right before the month of Ramadhan even started!so you count back how long that is and guess how much already i would have dropped!but when i told some of the gym members to train with me.i was expecting them to do as good as me or even better,yet how they struggle to keep up with me!how dissappointing..but well i decide to put my anger aside cause the least they did for us seniors is a very warm welcoming comeback from our attachment.so how do i look?after 3 days of coming back to the gym?(comments...)

pampering myself with money..for the 1st time i wasn't being cheap.i treated my cuzz to a movie,snacks.my lil bro a movie also,and dinner and lunch..and my family to Swensens soon..and still some more.well there has been lots of things going on during my comeback.performances,visits,hanging out... its alot but i cant write it all can i.well those are some updates you get see.well there is one thing im still unable to catch up with.my best friend Haziq.we hanged before during my attachment period.with my cuzz from Malaysia.that was the last time i saw him.pity him.i wonder how my bro have been coping with life so far without he's best friend..sorry bro.we'll catch soon..so come,you all miss me,come tag time!!

Assalamualaikum~

The 1st day of Syawal

2008-10-07T02:01:00.000-07:00

ouhk today i got to come back early from work/industrial attachment.so i took the oppurtunity to update my blog.1stly i want to say to dear humble readers.Happy Hari Raya Aidilfitri.i asked for your forgiveness if ever done wrong of me towards you.be it,virtually or face to face.

ouhk,so to start things off,every year the 1st house we visit is my grandmothers house from my mother's side of the family.but before we get to that part.i start off with my family.every 1st day morning month of Syawal,I'll do the solat at the Mosque with my dad,this year with my brother.when back home have breakfast.then get ready to go out and visit the 1st elders house(grandmother & aunt).but while getting ready,in between my siblings and i go ask for forgiveness from our parents for sins and all wrongdoings,that cause them a hard time in their life.you may think that sound easy right?yeah,reach maturity,when you start to understand life.only then you know how uneasy it is to do so.1st day of Syawal already the Ungreatful Satan is there to make you do wrong.you feel like following your ego and not ask for forgiveness from your parents.but 'Alhamdullillah'(Thank God) i did fine.nevertheless,i never shed tears before.but i do feel the love going on while the activity's occuring.yeah so here we go,onto next...

...before went out we took a pic of the whole fam.the area we took the pic at,wasn't a good idea.but anyways,it's ok.

the Rahman's
arrived grandma's house.i always check on our apek.there my cuzz,Shahzan.same school as me,the matrep/apek/tailong/samseng of our fam.never fail to wear his apek singlet.every year during raya.a routine for him to appear like that.in anycase,it's everytime visited his house.lol!
testing cam only!hehehee...
ouhk here's the Msia model and Ironman...my niece and nephew,Miamor and Syahmi. my brother's playing with Syahmi,so i took the pic of them
see la,bloody Ironman. without fail you know!ask see the camera,he go see his hands.seeing wether it looks as good as ironman anot,haha!

ouhk,there's my favourite one,Fysal aka Shaun.since when he took pic making face like a playboy??!!ouhk,back there Amar.i never called him but he suddenly appear to be posing for the shot.so suiting the name toyol,lol!
yeah so i kol,the fat-macho.handsome-toyol.berg-geek.
they were watching jackass dvd.not the younger kids..
here's a shot from my elder cuzz Syaiful.Shahzan's brother.trying out my new cam.
a shot of the whole family spending time together,like how itis every raya & every other year and day.we're a big happy family=D!the one in white T,is brother Mamat.Shahzan's step brother.

they use to call us twins.now look how different we are now,lols!and one was describe the skinny and average.now its totally the opp..

formal take
he look so like 'wak2'!he's like a Javanese Mafia and im his mercenery bodyguard.lols!
ouhk here's another niece of mine.her name's Intan.very cute huh?her twin cousin didnt manage to get a pic,cause oways with mummy.her name's,i forgot,she's Syahmi sister.

every raya,one by one we take pic of every family.
yeah there she is.Shahril with fam,Shahzan's 1st elder brother.(left to right)Kak Shifa,forgot,Syahmi,Abg Berd(Shahril)call him that cause his younger days,he love Birdie from Sesame's Street.in between at the back is Nelly.Abang Mamat's daughter.so it's another niece.
Syaiful and family.Shahzan's 2nd brother.(left to right)Intan,Syaiful,Yati.

Elder's aunt from mother's side.Rosli with family.(L-R)Aunt Rosidah,Shahzan,Unc Rosli.
The 2nd fam.they live their life at Malaysia.Khalif and family.(L-R)Faryn,Unc Khalif,Aunt Nani(mum's 2nd sis),Miamor(Aisyh's daughter),Fysal,Aisyh.
Rahman's.my mum's the 3rd sibling.(L-R)Nisa,Rahmah(mum),Maziz,Rahman(dad),Khalis.my mum's the third
4th fam.Soebirin and fam.(L-R)Amar,Aunt Azizah,Unc Soebirin(mum's 4th Brother),Soefie,Aiman.
and so the 5th final,Shima with family.(L-R)Nurul,Aunt Shima,Hijriyah.

so i missed out taking a pic of Abg Mamat and family.includes Abang Mamat himself,Kak Su,Syikin,Eireen,Hazeem and Nelly.You can see Syikin and Eireen on my previous blog..

me and dear nenek.i do love her,but im not close to her.but it's ok,i still love her though.
the atmosphere of Aidilfitri in Syawal.all so cheerful and happy.we asked for forgiveness from Allah and the loved one's we hurt.and also to close friends including from other racers.to every Islam followers,i wish you Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri,Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Fhunkie Stylerz's you too,peace one love!you always in my heart man!

hello readers

2008-09-20T06:26:00.000-07:00

ouhk today at 1st was really totally boring..really,check this out..

i was taking picture of myself since i finally bought a new battery for my camera,out of boredom you know.and my brother is like all the way with his PSP.

then later my mum told me that my aunt ask to go to the funfair with my bro.i was so reluctant at 1st.but then later at night after breaking fast,after all the discussion and commotion all that,i just decided to go.i thought,Okla funfair.in my mind it was roller coaster ride those kinda things.it's been a long time since i take rides like that.but when i reach the place i was like,what the heck is this place??!it looks more like a carnival!argh...how worst could my day get?!indeed it says celebrating children's day carnival.OMG,my aunt really cant differentiate between carnival and a funfair..well what to do,I'll just go ahead since i was there already...so here are some pics of my bro and our nieces...

the only thing that was on,was the candy floss stall.others are already closing.so what can i do over there you tell me?-_-
ouhk so i was acting like i was a pro photographer.well i know my angle and confidence sucks..or maybe i was so damn demoralise-Ly pissed over the issue of carnival and funfair thingy.
so ouhk at least my bro feel a lil lighter having me get for him his candy.
and drink...
I'm telling you i really have nothing else to take shot of pictures.or..,maybe my spirit wasn't just into the event,yet,maybe..?whatever...

so then we head home since the whole thing have finished.this is the only part i liked.sitting at my uncle's back of his lorry.the reason,the view together with the wind makes it really awesome sitting there.so i sat there with my brother,and my two nieces.Syikin(with specs) & Eireen..

man they really have long hair...

so here's my couple of last few shots before reaching home.as i told you i like seating at the back. i hoped this last pic is clear as I'm too scared to turn on the flash.cause behind me is a jungle.what if something white and an ugly face turn up behind me.lol,actually i just made that up.haha...ouhk so that's it.caO,enjoy...

=)

2008-09-19T07:41:00.000-07:00

alright,so i decided to update my blog.since i really have nothing to do this past few days.Went to dance practice today with Jon,the only Fhunkie Stylerz member.and i suggested to him to call down Black X's for dance practice.OH yeah Black X's is a crew Jon help to bring up.it's from a bunch of our school's student council dance group.I'm just helping Jon out bringing up the crew.well it's last min so i can't expect all of them to turn up.and he also bring his last time friend from his secondary school i think,forgot her name..well as for Fhunkie Stylerz,it's definitely not a last minute info.yet many didn't turn up,haizz..well as for some,they do have their reasons,for not coming so it's cool..so nothing much happen today,just a random dance practice at the CC after breaking-fast at home.and yeah so that was it.so ill see you guys around,caO..

the kind of friends in the world you want to be with.

2008-09-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

It felt just like yesterday when you 1st got to know your friends.and now we are all graduating soon end of this year.dear humble readers,a little advise from me.treasure your friends while they are still around.some are may appear temporary.but the slightest time spent together makes a difference in your life in school or work real and meaningful.they are one the reasons that made your life real...

today i hang out with some of my friends from school where i haven't been for such a long time.At 1st it was Taufiq's idea to just chill.I looked to it further.it may be our last time seeing each other before our industrial attachment starts.after I.A's finished,there's no guarantee that we'll have time together like how we are now.so i decide to pull in a lot of our classmates to hang out.but seemed like only some has some sense of what i felt.but it's ok.so this are some friends that followed.Taufiq,Fida,Fauzan,Joycelyn,Sankari.here are some pics of what happen today..

as soon as these guys decided to hang,i took out my digital cam & take a pic of them.oh yeah 4gt to mention i had a new pink digital cam.and yeah,straight away this is their reactions...=)

I wanted to get in the picture too!lols!

this picture maybe stylish,but it really hit me in my mind after i saw this.i got emotional inside =)Fida and Joyce with no hesitant taking pics of themselves knowing i bought a digital cam

them again
thanks to my schoolmate/gym junior helped us took this pic.thanks again 'Snot'!
so we've reached Vivo.and we saw this track.at 1st it looked like a typical Tamiya track.but we were wrong it's a NASCAR track with NASCAR radio control cars!awesome!
while they were ALL figuring out whether to play them.i asked Fida to help me take the pic of me together with the guys.there's Fauzan and Taufiq
Joyce will always want a part of any shot taken or intended.lols!
so decide to play.i just thought i Fida lay back and watch them play.
it's been awhile i took picture with her
I'm gonna miss her
i told them,"yoah!racing faces on alrights!"but all were to anxious to play..haha!
i wanted to record them playing man,but pity my cam was limited memory.no memory card yet...
Joyce really trying hard playing,seriously!
there is racer TQ and 4zan!

so that was the commotion earlier.after we decided to chill at "Ben & Jerry".it was okay 2 chill there,cause at least we bought something,i mean Joyce.the rest are fasting of course,haha!
so there Joyce bought a simple plain choc ice cream.she just cant get enough of taking pics.this shoot was her demand,lols!
nice huh?
you see that guy shooting?pity,Fauzan was tired working yesterday.didn't sleep all morning.so he went home halfway.but its okay.its important he have his rest.TC man!

there!that rascal,latecomer name is Sankari!asked come already while still in school.but wanted to see her admirer in school.then called in last min,wanted to join us.haha!
Fauzan went home Sankari took over.haha! taken from the staff working there.was actually a bad shot,so i edited it.
so we shifted to get a better picture.still this was taken by the worker there.thanks!
so there's us!

again!haha...

next,we chilled around the pet shop.the Pet Safari.

there
here's better view
so it wasn't allowed to take pics in here.i took secretly.i had too,lol...

next head to the breezy top of Vivo,the skypark!
cool huh?

haha!
this guy!he was known as the most fierce,angry looking person.i personally call him a bapak2 look alike,especially inside gym lols!that means those uncle2 fatherly like look,haha!and you know he smiled in this pic! rare!
so this are the girls.

Joyce,Fida,Sankari.lighting was great since we're under the hot sun.but luckily the wind was there to fair things up.

so it's my time to shine....

how?got Channing Tatum look or not?lols!!
hello handsome...lols!!!hahah!

lastly..,guys,you guys are all definitely treasured by me.take care friends...

continuation...

2008-09-04T07:26:00.000-07:00

on the way inside the bus i saw someone i can't really believe my eyes was seeing.remember the girl i said who went Indonesia to study?to those who had been following up with my blog ya,you all should know..she was there,in the bus.she boarded the bus after a few bus stop in front of CMPB.the funny thing how come shes at Pasir Panjang area?then she alighted at the bus stop near Habourfront area.at the PSA building.that's it,she must be working there?!but how come?that's an office building,i thought she's only 16 this year?at 1st i didn't alight.but then i think,this is once in a lifetime chance.i should approached her man.with no more hesitance,i press the bell quickly and ran after her.approaching her,i said...

A-Ahzwani
K-Me

K-miss!are you Azhwani?
A-no...(with a slight smile)
K-Are you sure?do you stay at Bedok?
A-nope
K-ouh..
A-why?(a slight smile again,with curiosity on her face)
K-noting i mistake you for someone else.thanks
A-Smiles...

i walked away with full of disappointments.i hope so hard for her to said yes at least for the part when i asked her name.i don't know could I've been fooled all this time along?but I'm bloody damn sure she was the one in those pictures.exactly the same.how could it not be.my eyes can't play tricks on me!i was so close up with her!i still remember how she looks like,argh!what's all this means??!especially when its the month of Ramadan!why is Allah showing me all this?!why now??what am i suppose to do now.I've been loyal waiting for her,i missed her.should i try finding her again?if should,i don't know what to start off with..or is this just another test of patience again..

you know kids.they can get desperate anytime.that's what i felt last time.well i was getting to know her on the phone talking to her everytime.but i haven't even met her.but that doesn't give the reason for me to not believe that she is actually there standing in front of me on that moment of time.i know what i saw.this maybe the talk of desperation,but i did missed talking to that girl.maybe if i bumped onto her again,ill try asking her no.if it's the same as the number i know her for then there's definitely no doubt that's her.and if it's not,i may have been fooled by looks all this while.or maybe,i don't know.maybe she changed her number?well let see what's destined..Allah show me what you have planned up for me soon please.i pray for a normal life,no more complications...Ameen..

and it all comes back

2008-09-03T08:06:00.000-07:00

today didnt go to school.had to go medical check up at the CMPB.i had my dad to sent me there,cause i really wasn't sure of how to go there,so as not for me to get there late.well had to go through their security as entering the building.its almost the same as security check on check point.well that's for that.after i went through the check up.everything was fine at 1st.then slowly it became fun.as i get to make friends too.then it became a little nightmare.i had to do test man!it's like math test ya see?how long was i doing math!2yrs ago man!im not doin those stuff anymore,how should i be able to do those questions?!well lucky there are some cool subjects on the test.if not i'll be like failing sia!and all that procedure took at least 4hours..

after that i thought of going to school since im still early.my class stars at two.i finished at 1230.but on second thought im not going.after the blood test,i feel quite weak already.i walk to the nearest busstop outside CMPB.take a bus wich leads to the nearest station.(im cutting in short.got to go.something came up.i'll continue soon!sorry!really soon!)

just another post

2008-08-28T06:59:00.000-07:00

so the month of Ramadhan's coming up!it's gonna be a nice month,I'm very sure.as how it is every other single year's past.yeah,and I'm wondering how the heck am i going to maintain my gyming?!I'm gonna have prob with my diet!I'm sure I'm gonna lose lots mass by end of Ramadhan!damn!but i know my good deed working through the month will be repaid with something better.Insyaallah...man how much i miss practicing dancing with fella crew members..speaking of missed,I'll definitely missed my schoolmates my classmates and all friends from ITE Dover,right after i graduate.man..when we were young we just wanna skip school every time!now,it feels like school is really part of your home!family members are all in school!haizz...insyaallah will still keep in contact after graduating.but it'll be real hard.humans,they tend to go their on ways as life goes on.we can's stop things like that.but some pairs are lucky,they get to be together for a very long time.today,i just went out with Taufiq,went swimming with him,right after gyming from school.great workout,jyeah...definitely gonna miss that guy.he has been my closest friend in school ever since we 1st met!but there's a good possibility that we'll still meet.cause we coincidentally plan the same.to go higher Nitec and pursue the same course.anyway even though if it's different course,I'm sure the campus would be the same.the new CCK ITE campus.

now I'm thinking of my past friends.like Haziq and Ariff.both from my secondary school.the both are my only true friends.but some how we lost contact with each other.i don't know when we'll get back to see each other.or just maybe it'll turn out as a distant memories.well that's just fate or should i say destiny.but before anything happens ill say it now.it was a good thing i made friends with them.lots things learnt.loyalty everlasting friendship.i hope we meet again brothers.man how i missed those badminton times,karaoke,doing Parkour together..

as they say its better to make just a few friends,not so many.or your life we'll just be complicated.cause family shall always be there to help you through thick and thin.

man i hope i can cry.but I'm not a cry er.maybe if you leave me to sit one corner and gaze away thinking about all this.perhaps I'd happen to cry..man..,the main thing is just i missed my school friends.every single one of them.even the one's i hate.they made my world of secondary school real.and also help me learnt and become the man i am today...so i thank you haters from school.pray for all of you health and wellness..after all,you all are friends anyway..so once again thank you.

to dearest FIS,you all are another family that has really gotten stuck on me.please i beg you guys,let us stay as what we are.be as one.so i won't have to miss you guys too.not as much as how i missed my school friends now.i know i can depend on you guys for my fun and laughter.together now 'Fhunkie love!'you all may think i have my own life,but I'm thinking on each of every one of you guys everytime.and that's include you too Abg Isaac.i don't know how you're gonna be able to read this,but i hope you do.i missed ya all..