ill learn to live.ill learn to forget what's happen.but i never Dclare its over yet..im still deciding..i need a someone new to probarbly help me up,help me out of this mess..through love through whatever it supposingly is..help me forget..but still it all comes back to me,my decision to be made..i made a messed,i can pick myself up again.hopefully yes,and ill be able to live with it.well enough sad moments,now for a start,ill pick myself up now!hey guess what.my penpal from poland just went online again!its been so long yar!!bloody misses her!so happy!she sure did make me smile again!i really hope to meet her soon!i don't know..maybe i'll go there,or she'll come here.but come to think of it i tink she'll come here 1st.you think i have that much money to travel those distant overseas!!damn!!i would if could!

It's not things are difficult that we don't dare to try. It's that we don't dare to try that things are difficult.

-Seneque

so we must keep on trying till we're out!

moments...

@ this very moment my mind thinks of some,who i misses so much.she/they cares for me.and had always love me.two person.my past away guardian,and my far away speacial friend.a few days back my mum and i had a talk bout my guardian who past away a year ago..suddenly my tears drop down,thinking that ive never prayed for her,asking god to ease or lighten her punishment at the after world..but during previous friday prayers,cant believe i actually cried just thinking of her and my far away girl friend..i prayed for the best of them,here now and the after world..they shall always know i'll never stop loving them..but as for her,i don't know wether im gonna be keep on going strong to wait for her for 4 or more years to come till she finishes school @ there and comes back to singapore(well she do comes back only when special occasion).but if desTny says we're not 2 be 2gether 4ever,then for all i know,its all really worth it.its definitely true love..my god Allah,is the mightiest,holds justice @ all cost.give me strength,courage and wisdom.ease my journey till the akhirat and let us all Islam live happily in heaven.i pray for myself,i pray for all that i love and care..

FOOH!!

damn wat a day.taufiq my very cloz classmate didnt cm school today so didnt get to play his PSP,lols!!well kinda quiet evrytym he's not around.cause then can someone laughs at my joke,haha!!so now i know that he's the true friend that has always been there for me.Taufiq2...hah.heard tomorrow got s.c. meetin.still not yet Dcided as wether to go or not.went to the gym when reached school..well @least there's Alex!den comes some more other close frens..after my lunch break,had a test.lucky i'd survive!all thanx to Joycelyn book.how thoughtful & considerate of her!thanx again Joyce!finished test went straight home.didnt feel like dropping by the gym.just cant wait 4 nsa eagles traning!n finally its 5!so i went downstairs as the guys called me.well we kinda trained under my void deck.yeah...and 2day ive made a vest.well seems lyk a temprorary one(its already spoiled,haha!).then i felt something differrent on 2days training.i feel every members spirit trying real hard on 2days training and its such a good thing.it definitely turned my spirit up!even though only a few turned up..well watever...haha.everybody went crazy during the acrobats part.Started to do saults & flips that ive never done in a long time!and its totally awesome!!but sad to say,nsa eagles taking a break after this week.the january intake ITE guys has an exam coming up(me too!).so yeah,but i still do teh trainin though by myself,well in dance practice i guess,haha..but keep this spirit up,and we eagles will definitely go real far!soaring..!!

the motto D.T.A still stands strong in me,i dunno y.

hmm... sometimes i feel like whenever i give good advices to frens,they seem to tink that im talking trash..sometime after im done giving advices,it'll all just end up them thinking me as someone who thinks he's all that,or maybe turns out to be just anoether relationship clashes..i don't know.am i being naive??am i trying too hard in being a good person..ive tried being ragget,but i don't seem to see the point in it.its better off being myself..don't you tink so??well as far as im concern,im having no regrets being the way i am,im living life to the fullest..who wanna hate,let dem be..i'll just be humble den...for all i know,there are some friends i can trust,dey've shown the commitment in our friendship.so i treasure..well i guess this is it for a start of my 1st ever created blog!ciaoz!