Have a happy new 2011 year readers..=)

Im jus wandering.mm.if you lead your life without having a blog and jus kept it in a secret journal,would ur life/ character be any different?? btw i write in a secret journal...iv published a few personal poetry on fb & my frends love reading it :)

Yeah it will.If I were to do that I would be like a boring person.Not just blog,places like facebook.My kind of person which most of the people in this world are like,needs to express themselves.but if something is just to personal I try not to write it down of course.Basicly if I find the urge or need to,I will filter the info a little,make the readers guess and wonder.I was never someone who speaks out alot,quiet most of the time,especially among people I don't really know yet.By blogging Ive learnt alot,to be brave when doin somethings,learnt to use good english when laying a phrase.yes sometime I do regret my post if dey're too sensitive,i dont delete dem,I make an apology post unless it's really crucial I will delete them to prevent any deep negativity to happen.why I do that is so that I will teach myself a lesson when I read back those posts and realise how silly I can be.my only secret journal is my thoughts and heart which I kept somethings that's so3 personal and crucial.Im no good at it but I love reading poetry espeacially when I know it's a good one..share some to me? =)

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

Plz help. I deeply detest my ex bf, all he did was give me grief, dramas and an unbearable burdern to carry!. I avoid him at uni, but this hatred is making me feel miserable. How do I overcome and let go? How would u handle it if u were in my shoes? XD

Ouhkay surely he has his reasons and something that he is not satisfied at.You wana try finding out why or what's it about 1st?the best solution is both parties just have to let the ego down and talk it out.Itis a miserable feeling and itis crucial to let go.so handle it like an adult if he chose to handle it like a kid.If he can see you doing that,he'll come to realise how pathetic he is.and yes,that is how i wud handle it.not just towards the opposite gender bt the same ones too.communication does wonders..have patience,it'll take time.. x)

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

Trying for a change

I gotta tell you guys about my new dance Idol.Been awhile since I wana blog bout this.His name is Keone Madrid living in the United States.He is absolutely sick!he's like got a little most out from everything else!He has Lyle Beniga's kinda crazy shit,Shaun Evaristo moves and flow a little,Shit Kingz wow factor all put together,his just crazy man!ugh!

So you've seen for yourself?Now you know what I mean when he got a little like Lyle Beniga?But just hold it,wait till the video below.You just see how verseatile he is when you see more of his dance execution.. ;)

A dancer from Choreo Cookies and Choreographer from Movement Lifestyle Studio's,repping San Diego.Movement Lifestyle (dance)Studio alone is big.Working alongside the people of M.L Studio's shows much.This is really awesome man,I wanna be like him someday.Been keeping afew lots of his video in my gadgets.Can't stop watching and learning.Finding inspirations from his work.Good in couple work,lyrical,L.A & a little Jazz I see.When have to give energy,he's just awesome man..

Keone's a good looking dude man,can't blame if he got lots of fans and alot of people like me that idolise him,period.Got a good & sweet smile,pretty down to earth telling by when he speaks out and a really good sense of style and fashion.You should really check him out on youtube and all.

Keone Madrid the Illest

Im a girl..and i find it challenging to be bestfriends with a boy...u cant get too close otherwise it becomes awkward. Do you find it hard to be bestfriends with a girl? what obstacles do u face? ^^

It's only natural to feel that way,I'm serious,because I know.heh!But really ah..Time will only tell wether you're truly bestfriends or lovers turn out to be.Coming from me a guy,my point of view alone,It's up to your decisions as what you truly want to stay as friends or try become lovers.'Sometimes' if you hide it long enough that love/crush feeling will go away.If it doesn't you'll only truely know the answer,that you can never be his 'girl bestfriend' and yeah..;)

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

I don't wanna be ordinary but try hard to be outstanding

Yesterday i took this drug called 'power'.My local race call it pill kuda-kuda or something like that.Don't worry,I didn't get hooked and I'm just fine.I ask lotsa questions before I took it.Insyaallah nothing is wrong.I was kinda peer presured it's a give and take scenario,it wasn't the givers fault I'm sure.He told me his intentions and we got it cleared.It was still my decision and I chose to take it.The experience is pretty fantasy.

The feeling wasn't hard to describe.For a 1st timer,there was pain but there's pleasure too.When I shut my eyes and let the whole thing take on my mind with the song and lights around me,I saw a blue dragon.I was dancing and a light flew around me.My path was like a million stone I've to step on so I won't fall down the height.I had to fight or I'd lose myself.It could have been nice,but I think its just wasn't the right time.Now I understand.But I still dont favour it,that's why I was right from the beginning.Taste bad to be good?maybe a good idea..

Don't have to exactly be bad to be good.But just have a taste of it,I think it's fine..The benefits for your own good and the people around you..It's a life experience.

It was my choice to take.It's just something bad for me to equipt in life,for experience sake.An easy simplified reason/excuse to it,example it's like what I said on the above paragraph.Simply one like when I take it,I will know what's it like and decide if it's just too bad or good.So I can help the people around me who intends of doing the same.Lotsa reasons to it I must say for takin them.

I've took a step higher in life maybe for me to fall or maybe not.We'll see..Here comes Destiny approaching again.

Why do some believe in God?

Nothing I see is of an interest now,I don't dare to call it passion anymore,more like an addiction.Maybe I was plain unlucky to fall into a beautiful disaster,which makes good feelings to have a bad name.This unbalance thing causes me madness,but goodness still comes.God I ask what is this purpose and what's your intentions?

I heard a saying from a precious soul,God shall never test a human to it's limits.But what I'm feeling is really like I'll shall only know my limit when I'm dead.Because I think right now,my limit is my last breath.

I gave my best,my good side for anyone to be bless having it.I think I've come close to giving my all.Why god,why don't you still just let me have it?Do you really literally want me to give my all?

I've learnt something,happiness is just an emotion.Not some destiny that'll lead to a believe.They say you have to taste bitter before sweet.God how much more bitterness..Dear god I blame you for costing my happiness.I remember I once use to be a very happy soul.Now I'm so serious,so cautious.What have you done for I should deserve this.I've never asked for any of this.You gave it to me.Now I'm into it,I got the worst.If you're preparing me for something,I don't get it why you're doing all this till I'm closest to all burned up?Actually I think I once here and there already been burned.I get your message,I've come close to a free thinker,but I never stop believe in you..I'm speechless..

June and October birthday traits

JUNE =FINEASS Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

OCTOBER=HOTTIE Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

My aura,my vibe,my life

When you hurt me deep inside,
The pain I try so hard to hide.
But I feel my heart break,
And my soul begins to ache.
I fight back the tears the best I can,
I keep telling myself I love this gal.
I cannot understand why?
You do and say things that make me cry.
I love you with all I am deep within,
You are my best friend.
Love should never bring a tear to your eye,
And I often wonder if you know why?
So please don’t hurt me just because you can,
I’m not sure how much more I can stand.

Though I believe so much in what you brought up and that I wanna be there for you so much.But I just can't fight my heart that it feels this way.

Bury me alive then bury me dead.So at least I see you do your heartless things.By that time it'll already be too late.Staring and watching you refusing to think.
Dead & Gone soon.

The counts,energy,breathing,heartbeat,steps,the individually different executed mood,the passion,that keeps my heart pumped telling my brain to keep living so it can take control of my body to let me take control of my life.The one thing that keeps me strong when my loved ones can't be there for me when I'm down.One thing I hold on to so hard..

For whatever reason,I pray to you Allah S.W.T,give me strength courage and justice in life.I wish to be happy again.Give me back my vibe,give me back my real life.I can be successful,I can be the a man of values if you let me and open the doors of opportunity for me and all that I just ask for.I can be the man that you want me to be.Because a good thought is you speaking to me.Allah I pray you let her live on so I can keep continuing to love her.Don't take her away from me as I'm just not ready for you to do that.Allah mercy on us & help me..

Not ready for the change when I see you in that wedding dress

Kakak, I'm not ready for you to actually leave the house.I'm not.When I see you in that wedding dress and you go up the pelamin,I'm all so happy for you but I never never am ready for the change.Because I know I can't talk to anyone as much close when I'm talking to you.Every night I can just stay up late and look forward to you coming home cause I know you'll be having your late dinner and watching the tv for your CSI,Korean dramas and all.Those are the time where usually I can share alot with you and you advising me and stuff..Saying your point of view at me with relationships school and probs with mum and dad all..I know after December 12 I shouldn't look forward to that anymore.I just wish I can have someone I love so I'd be able to share everything so deeply similar to like what we two usually share but they can never replace you my one and only blood sister.Now whenever I'm down,I've to be strong and help myself.I must prepare myself soon as I can't let pain bring me to a fall again cause I know you won't be around to comfort my heart anymore,to give me a listening ear..Kakak,I will miss you so much,I know so well myself.. ),=

I love you okay Kak..

You're Mean yet you're Lovely

Well here's my 1st ever dance freestyle video.There just a message that's in me wanted to express it to dance.One of the easiest and fastest way i could do them is alwasy by freestyling rather then choreographing cause it always takes up time and I'm pretty tight and busy lately..I was also actually waiting for my dance mates to turn up.was bored so I just decided to freestyle.

So if you got this page by googling,here's my short showcase Freestyling to the song Let's Just Be by Miguel Jontel.The location is at Republic Polytechnic E block.I'm a student from Institute of Technical Education Choa Chu Kang also known as ITE CCK.I'm representing SG(Singapore) hiphop,Fhunkie Stylerz(F.I.S) & SleekBeatz(SB).Recognize Local talent people.It's not a waste,we're growing stronger and slowly being very recognisable..

My bad ayt

alright2,see I'm so not myself.I haven't been like myself lately.My bad to you guy.I don't know wether you've actually read the post below before.But I've delete them to prevent any chances of negative things to happen.I don't know you and you don't know me.I know I got no right to talk about you like that.I know its kinda a little overboard.Whatever I feel now,how my character is like,all that aside I still got no right to talk about you like that.So forgive me humble slave of Allah.Maybe my mood and the things happening around me make me easily get tick off from the way you speak.Perhaps that's just the way you speak.Sorry brother.I'll see you around.

I'm sorry,but this is not a humble post

*My brain died when my heart tries to keep pumping climbing the mountain.It was a rainy night.Now it's so hard,I can't breathe right.Sunshine help me overcome this.A little warmth please cause the pouring rain occurred for so long..

That's what I post on facebook.I look at myself sometime I can't deny I'm a very emotional man.But lately I've been emotionally a weakling.I'm rather disappointed what I have become to be.I feel stupid.Please don't mind me at all when I'm that way.If can and if you please to help me,please give me a tight slap to just man up.I kinda built this anger inside me.I suddenly feel mad even more so easily.I think it has been building inside me everytime I kept swallowing them in when I was weak.I think it just got bigger and bigger everytime I swallow pain.So I said I was an emotional man.Imma let that be.I won't stop it.I think this is me,the seasons keep changes.Sometimes I'll be weak,nice,quiet but now I'm furious mad.This is me deal with it.I'm not afraid to make this stand.It's time I try to change the direction of the wind.I'm done being weak for so long.So now this rage came,you'll find a hard time stopping it.

I'm different when I'm mad.My ego and harsh words character came out like totally surprised you followers.yeah I know.I'm not afraid.I'm telling you I'm doing this for me!It's time I start thinking for myself.I'm human too ayt.

A good display of movement by dancing to relate to anger
Song-Won't back down by Eminem
Choreography-Lyle Beniga

Nice blog .!

hey thanks!I have no idea and no time to decorate it even better,haha.Keep reading and following yeah.but don't mind the emo shits though,heh..x)

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

Episode 5 month

You know it ain't wise but you still do it steering my ride around like mad.
It's not even a temptation,but it's a choice.

Caused it ain't like you drifting making my ride look good.

Now you just caused my precious ride(drive).
How the heck am I suppose to find S.O.S(Inspiration) in the middle of nowhere?

Well there's gotta be something right.
God let a miracle come cause I've work so hard for whatever's worth.

Salam Aidilfitri to all fellow Muslim's

Click on the video above if you wish to hear the sweet sound of Takbir Aidilfitri*

Bismillah..

AsyhaduAllah illahaillallah..Waasyhaduanna Muhammadar Rasullullah..

As you know,once you hear the Takbir,Aidilfitri is here and everyone is taking moments to ask for forgiveness and forgiving one another.I too Khalis Ihsan Bin Abdul Rahman would like to do the same.With no special phrases,I come all sincerely and as a passionate Muslim,wishing you a wonderful Aidilfitri this year.To dearest you reader/friend/stranger who have stick with me through thick and thin,please do forgive me of my sins and wrong doings and Halal the food and drinks I get.It has been a rough year,for me the least.It's nice to know you fellows have been a part of my life.

By this message,I hope I inspire you all to do much more further greatness in life and days to come and may we never forget to those who are unfortunate in many ways during this special time and to those who have left us behind.May they rest in peace.May you all have good time celebrating with your loved ones.Believe happiness is always there,Insyaallah..

Hikmah,let this be at an end..

Lemme just start over..Initially this post I wrote all was somehow I find them worthless.I saw myself complaining over things.God give me strength to make it through this.I see my friends been so lucky have a good family friends lover.They're good person themselves.For I am unlucky not having the perfect life.But i look back some of the things I saw days back.There are more people living in this world suffering even more worst then I am take my mum as the nearest examples.This has more sadness then I am experiencing with.I know myself how tiring this can be.But i pray every time for god to give fairness and justice in life.Some people die living along with their pain.So every time I'm down I keep telling myself,there's worst..I kept crying this month,which I know if I cry during the month of Ramadan,a fasting month I'll just break my fast.The more I cry the more strength it took from inside my heart the more weak I feel for the whole day.I fight it just to continue fasting because I want to fast.I'm still thinking about you Allah..I pray for the happy life I need so much from you Allah and let the sadness and burden be lessen for least..It's been an unfair life,but I won't give up.Persistence and Believing for fairness and happiness will come to happen ahead.I love you Fatimah no matter how bad things turn out to be,I will never stop being here for you.You're not perfect so am I.I deserve this,as it's time I realise how mean reality can be..I love my family.I shall do my best to be with them more often for I know what I have lack in myself for them..

If I trip,will you catch my hand?

How's it going there,good?Well Just to let you guys know the late past I've been busy with SleekBeatz now I'm making a comeback with Fhunkie.F.I.S comeback is Suntec 2010 as I made a last minute join in with my 1st crew for our comeback.So you guys gotta go check us out.We're stronger cause we've evolved our individual style after embracing them away for awhile with each of our individual styles crew and now we're sharing choreography's and styles with each other making sure to blow you guys away for your entertainment(Insyaallah).Do come down support us this Saturday 21st August at Suntec City Mall at the Galleria Square Level 1 at 1pm for the audition round.For the non-Muslim's,bring some water bottles and snacks as it's gonna be a long day.Get some shades or hats along as it might just get a Lil sunny.It'll be a guaranteed fun if you enjoy DANCING that's if!See you there! xD

I know you got more then an option.I might just be blown away very soon.Because I feel like a fool already for too long.I think the least is either it's time to let the whole world know or you stop killing my expectations.I'll definitely hurt myself as it's hard to move away as I'm already so immune to it,but I feel I gotta do what I gotta do.Feels like I'm a pussy being this way for long.Don't have to make it official,but just treat me well to my needs if we ever wanna avoid this..I gave my all,so as you can see I'm none like those previous man..

I need you and I need you bad

Sleek Beatz Participation for Singapore Youth Olympic Games (S.Y.O.G).Rather proud we actually did something by participating in a dance competition that has got to do with the Youth Olympic Games after seeing every outcome to the event espeacially the opening ceremony.Never regretted anything even if we didn't won the 2nd spot for this competition.SleekBeatz is here and we're not going anywhere,and to that I give a Shoutout to Fhunkie Stylerz,Fad Faction,Phat G's too as they're part of the family tree.Let's dream big make things happen.Put a smile on everyone's faces.Really counts..

She once loved me more then anything else in the world

She once loved me more then anything else in the world.

Bryan Ignatius's(FB friend/sec sch mate)

This is not fair,I gave you my all.I really want you to change.That is why I totally aggree with the statement ontop.You use to love care for me like I was everything in this world back when it was just our 1st 3 weeks of dating.You changed.You can't keep comparing to your ex nor you can't keep thinking for yourself.I loved you so much that's why I stayed,that's why I refuse to give up and I need you to change.I believe there's good in you.But I really feel like dying and I really feel like giving up sometimes..Allah aku penat lah,argh!!

Self Reflect

This was back last sunday at Orchard Central.Didn't expect anything much from this dance competition.Just wanted to give it a try.Just had a wild imagination if we get to win this.The winner gets to represent Singapore performing with a Taiwanese girlband S.H.E if I'm not wrong.We were thinking if we won,just thought of getting away from Singapore for awhile.Just needed a break from everything else.But we can dream on though,haha..Well we had fun doing this.Hope you guys would enjoy watching.=)

We got something to prove

Alright This was what I was busy with lately.Da HipRock Affairz Dance Competition held at Bukit Panjang Plaza on the 24th July.Despite given the tough competition to us crews like Fantastic,Freekum,Phat G's,Fhunky Nutz, still we manage to clinch the 2nd placing next to the winner.It was a wonderful job by everyone and every crew participated was awesome.To me every crew is a winner because everyone is awesome as they gave their 'A' game.So here is SleekBeatz featuring Zul(FFC) & Louis(FadFaction).Hope you guys enjoy the piece..=)

I Wished You'd Stop

(Usher Usher Usher)
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 1:
I can't, get to work on time, can't believe the words to her I just said
But who the hell argue n fight like dogs at 6 in the morning?(in the mornin)
I know it's gonna' be some more sh** tonight mm oooh
Our pastor's callin, tellin me I done went too far in
I'm seen around town and my friends can't recognize me,
'Cuz I took a chance on love(love), it's like(like), I'm dyin(ooh dyin)

Chrs:
For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world
'Cause you were my girl, girl, girl
I done damn near lost my mama, I done been through so much drama
I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you, I done gave up errthing I had to
As hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say
I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 2:
I'm losin my mind, can't figure out who's wrong or right
I know it's you I love, but then I also know it's you I don't like
You claim you hate who I was, but that's the reason you here now
You think I don't know what's up, but sweetheart that's what ruined us
I ain't afraid to say I got needs
But the only time you here for me is when the bottles poppin' and everything is sweet
But I I'm tired of sleeping in the other room spending them long nights
Trying to figure out what in the hell in my heart I ain't do right. (Oooh for u)

For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world(back against the world)
'Cause you were my girl, girl(girl), girl,
I done damn near lost my mama(mama), I done been through so much drama(drama)
I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.(never thought I would be)


I'm ready to sign them papers(papers), papers(paii), papers(paai ooh oh oh oh)
(I done took) all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you(know that I love u), I done gave up errthing I had to
(Anything I had to) as hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say(I'm affraid I gotta say)
I'm ready to sign them papers(papers), papers(paii), papers(girl I took all I could take)
(I done took) all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ohoh! OoOOooh! Oooooh yea! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Ready Ready Ready Ready
All my fellas up in here, if u had enough and u're ready to sign say
Ready Ready Ready Ready(I'm ready, yes I am)
All my ladies if u sick and tired, and u're, ready to sign, say
Ready Ready Ready Ready(ooh)
I can't keep livin this life, I'm feena leave it for the last time I'm
Ready Ready Ready Ready

I done damn near lost my mama, I done been through so much drama
I done turned into the man I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you, I done gave up errthing I had to
As hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say
I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Hopefully I finally moved on too

Okla,I'm gonna say right now that I miss this 'friend' of mine.Her name's Nabilah.Her nick's Ella.But I call her Elle,cooler right?haha..She posted a post for me,really sweet..I like,haha.So I wanna do the same in return,but the part I missed her really is true.Grab a picture of her there from her blog because I think she really looked hot at the picture,haha!She's the sweetest being I've ever met.So patient,so succumbed her life with happiness.She just know how to live happily,and I like that.=)

Wanna know what she posted?haha..

-Alright , have to say this . I miss Khalis Ihsan ? Yes ? No ? Yes ? I dont know ... Hmmm ..... Yes I miss him :) Its been awhile . He's always been treating me good , but Im always the troublesome one . I know laa Khals . Dont have to say .. And we had a great talk on the phone last night . But I dont know why we argue so much ! About everything . Ouhkay he praised Nutzcrew so much , so I praised SleekBeatz and Fhunkie Stylerz much much more . Hahahhaa !! ADNAN SEMPIT !!!! And , well he asked me to sing the song that I recommended to him , but then I dont know it turned out to be what . Laughing and argueing . Hmmpph pheewss !! But it was a great chat together . Im just so sad about something . Something personal , that we've been through , that hurts him deep . Im aware of that Khals . But it takes time for me to think . Thank you for always understand me . When Im mad and throw all those words to you , you still handle me with patience . I know . I see everything . Anyways , I wish you all the best in whatever you do now . I hope whatever you do , makes you feel happy and satisfy . Anything , you know you can beep me anytime ...

Sweet ey?I miss you too Elle.I'll just follow to whatever flow God destine us to be like.For all I know you will never lose this place as a friend the least,in my heart.And not to forget,something random.I like the profile song on her blog.Personally I think it describes her whole self in everyway.Some sophisticated sexy individual,haha.But really that's what it is,heh!Thank you Elle for somehow being in a part of my life.You never2 once fail to make me smile. =)

Time to really just Dance

Check out 2 of "my" new dance choreography.

Choreographed a dance to the song OMG-Usher somewhere on mid May this year(duh~). Got helped from Kamil and Sulaiman.Dancers performed in the clip are Chacha,Me,Man

Choreographed & Improvised Man's choreo to NLT's-Let Me Know.Dancers performed on clip Me & Sulaiman.

So comments or leave a tag alright

The Fisherman tells a story of his 2 way love.

Its like when we're on a boat sitting.It was so nice just the 2 of us but she wanted to have fun rather then spent time with me.I know she's scared of love because she deserve better after being treated by her past man..Jumping off trying catch a swim.She's having too much fun that she forgot what she's losing out.The splash she make causes the boat to drift away and the steady waves makes me go even further.I have a choice to stay or swim to her.As I want to say to her,don't take too long to come find me when you're already too far because I'm done fixing the holes you make in this boat,so I'm staying.The least is I'll just slowly paddle the boat back to you and if the waves allows me to reach you in time before I tired out,then perhaps we're meant to stay still..

On the other side,there's an island where a woman stay.Well what can I say..I was so confident I can let go of her and just try to be friends.Now I come back looking for her..Maybe I'm not sure of what I want right now.There are somethings I understand why things can't be done.But I just feel she too deserve better after what happen.I shall not persue her for I am also unsure of myself.I don't want to end up hurting anyone either.

And so the fisherman wonders,why is he always unlucky to experience love this way.Finding himself seeing another woman who has been hurt from another man's wrong doing.What did he do to deserve this kinda luck.Never he treat it as bad,just a different one.

p.s *maybe slight exaggeration here and there haha

END

To you.Yeah what you said is true last night after the meaningful text convo we had.I had to broke a tear to actually know what I had to say because wen we're on the phone I was just quiet.Wanted something from you but you just can't figure it out.So after I said all that,you broke to tear saying you're sorry and you replied a few,it's true.Maybe you shouldn't be surprise if I drifted off.But I'm a man who's diff as I try to finish off what I started,so I don't walk away that easily,just don't count on it.You won't be a choice unless you make me in anyways to feel like doing so.

For god sake all this,for the sake of putting on a sincere smile again

Look it's been crazy..We talking bout the number 4 here..

*Chatting with you just to make the wave calm and normal again..We're just facing what they say things just never turn out the way we wanted it to be for us.You're happy now,so am I.So let's keep it that way..=)

*As I was browsing through old photos on FB seeing you and us.Just having the thought that you use to be mine and your guy now is my friend is pretty wierd.But you know me,I can live with this.Really I am cool,not playing anything..We had our sweet moments.Why it's just so hard to talk now,is just maybe I'm too mad at how you do things.Perhaps time I let it go.Yes for sure I have moved on,long time ago.Just mad at you before still till just now.As I said Earlier it's time I forgive things.Everyone makes silly mistakes,sometimes not realising it ever.I don't have to say it..Yeah I'll smile to you now.But it'll take time..=)

*You were something for sure..You got me off my feet by your enthusiasm!You make me smile alot.But I think we are really friends that's what it is.You should keep being happy,in fact that's what I've ever wanted you to be.Just wanna make you happy untill things turn out otherwise.I'm so so sorry.As someone special to me said,never had I any bad intentions,just wanted you to be happy.Even if there is,it should be the positive ones..I've decided,this is who we should be,friends.Everything looks nice and better that way.I was just having silly feelings for the moment,I truly apologise..It'll take time to get back to how we use to be,I know we will be normal again.friends as always.=)

*And to you,It's been even more crazy..So much had happened.So much..I just wish you someday are willing to be that 'together'.I'll patiently wait for you.I know you're not ready.You know what you lacked,I see it.But since you still insist on getting ready by yourself.I respect that.We're looking like we're so special already.There's just that something huh..?Thanks to love and life experiences I know how to react & handle to situations like this.Someday,If its blessed and faith is on our side we'll be together.At least I won't get hurt so bad like last time..Don't worry I too don't like that quick and already in relationship thing.It's crap.But so,it has already been 2 months and a week..

Damn I just wana dance and really forget all this for awhile..

If you could go back in time 10 years and tell your younger self something, what would it be?

It would probarbly be start dancing quick.Stop asking bout road accidents,read more about bikes or something so I can actually get psyched about taking my bike license..hahaha

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

This questions

List of questions

• Is a love a thing to live with ?
• Can we survive without it ?
• Maybe its true , Maybe its false .
• Different people all , Have different thoughts .
• Now what is love ?
• Is it strong ?
• Is it pain ?
• Will it last long ?
• Does it hurt to be in love ?
• Will we get bless from the God's above ?
• Is it tough to be together ?
• Can we both be close forever ?

My answers

• We need Love,we turn to them when we're down.
• We need it real bad that's why we can't survive without it.
• Aggreed,but this is what I've been thought from my mother to believe since young.
• What it really is for real,Love is a serious matter,love is everlasting till eternity.Love is not about marriage.Love is lasting till eternity after u get married and with your loved oneS..
• It is strong
• It is very painful
• It will last long if both individual is compatible faithfull
• We will be blessed for trying.If you are ready,he will bless you with eternity love with an example like at the age of 43 when you're asking out your wife and she still have butterflies meeting you.
• It is tough to be together,because you have go through thick and thin to know if he/she for a start is wether even compatible with you or not.Other then that you could actually just turn out to be just total strangers..
• Can a couple be close forever,that is not for us to know.If we work hard as a couple and keep it clean,he might just bless you with eternity love.

I found this questions,and now I'm asking myself and I answer from what I believe.I've no guarantee in love because I myself am searching for the actual right one.The one that suits me,that really makes me happy.You can only know the answers to this questions on love as time goes by.Untill then,never get your hopes up too high just because it's nice now.It's always nice in the beginning..The world is harsh,so is love.But God is kind and he is fair..So believe,keep trying to find love and never give up.

Let's clear this

Alright,I had fun day today..Trying to be stress free when I'm around with Sleek Beatz..Did our own crewmate a favour performing for his mother's wedding..Congratulations and last long,Insyaallah..

alright side track..

I think it's time we make things clear..I have to leave and I can't come back.I can't stop you for being who you are,but what we are sometimes don't fit it.This is coming from my heart.Can't stop you from being young still.I need something real now,seriously.I don't wish to have fun anymore.We just have to take this that we're unlucky,because I can't leave now and then come back to you again when you're mature then.It'll never be a nice thing.So destiny states,we experienced unlucky love.honestly I have been missing you I just didn't wana show for the sake so we'll be able to move.I'm not lying,the music video's,track broken was actually dedicated to you too.Don't know if you've noticed..But thank you for appearing in my life.You are worth it..You'll make a good wife to whoever that's lucky to be with you in the future.the way you pour your love for your special partner is treasureable..

I state what is fact

U da breakup with Nini??? how sad, i sincerely thought u both sucha sweet couple!

yeah..somethings just didn't work out.there weren't really a prob between us as we love each other when we were together still.just that somethings we do couldn't really get along that well..and sometime 'time' in many ways is of the issue..

Eh sia,ask me anything ah..

Random shits yaw..

K I'm so f-ing random..Am in class,stuck with lessons..so stuck till i can't continue anymore,I decided to post some random shit for ya all dopes there checking me out still ,peace...

Lyle Beniga
Brian Pupos of SoReal Cru
Taeyang of Big Bang

This are my 3 major dance Idol..I know I use to idolise Bi Rain..but he's kinda off already..so not really interested..haha!If only I can master Lyle's energy and dope choreography's along with Puspos smooth ghetto flow.Then to master Taeyang's smooth performance in dance is the Iller shitx man! hahaha....That's right,they're my dance Idols for sure.shit I know random still right? haha...

My Karma..

Lemme just say,1st and foremost.This ain't mostly about girls.That's just partly alright?

Life been just so haywired..i feel like i don't have time to do somethings that matters much in life for the most important part of my life..I can only concentrate on doing those that really plays the most part of my life.school,dance,family..even for school I don't have much time for my school friends,as for dance goes for my outside friends too..which goes the same to my boo..damn..If only ya all know what's happening right now,only then you'll understand..I'm struggling,I'm stucked,I'm stuck in between..I need to find a way to pull this through..Everything been so tensed..And if I don't mind sharing with the WORLD,all my blog updates will be filled with just sorrowness,sorryness,depressed and hard blues..I'm sorry this really hasn't been a good time..Not all the people in the world are lucky.Some good things happens to some people,some just don't no matter how talented they are and how much longer they've been around the scene..this is life.I'm living it..My prophocies states that this is how my destiny have been going on non-stop for all my 19+ years..Yes I am not in a good state.I'm sorry.I will find myself again soon,Insyaallah..

Black is back and stronger then ever

On behalf of Fhunkie Stylerz & Sleek Beatz.We come back and come new in black.Beacuse Black is back and is stronger then ever..

F.I.S feels good to be dancing as F.F.C(Fhunk Fam Crew).The last time we danced as F.F.C was back then in Da Sho Case 4.Listen up..Our name was and were never dirty.There's just more haterz then fans that's why it looked like that which you guys assumed.We were well loved by the scene only people are jealoused of our big times comebacks and explosions in the scene that's why their 'DIRTY' mouth just had to start talking.Why should we stop hinting you haters?Because we already know who you guys are??pfft..If hate don't mix with us,simple as that.We rep harder then you that's why..If we're in our own world,why you're down there?We were hated for being good and being dope,well that's normal in this kinda things.Lemme just say,will never stop smoking you..But you're always welcome to change your ways and be our friends.Other then that,word up,Fhunkie Stylerz..,you're bitter. Explosion~

As for the rest of you that Idolise us,thank you and keep the love coming..This is how we role as a fam..There's off and on with each other,but we stay and comeback as one always..That's how we role..We'll always be tight.


Representing to you the freshest newest Sleek Beatz..A collaboration crew consisting of 2 groups for the main dancers are Fhunkie Stylerz & Fad Faction..We present to you coming in strong.We mean business..When you cast us out,we show you that you've made huge mistake in doing so.We make you take our word because we wana show you we intend to walk the talk.Our 1st appearance was just bad luck but trying again shows you we're no wannabe.We're Sleek in hitting those rythymic Beats.Yeah we'll be around,remember our name..Reprezen..

ya'll wana know it so bad right?

That's her right there..Tiny I know,haha..Things are very different being with her,good and in a bad way..I still have her in my heart no matter the end..=)
Any disaggreements,keep your oppinions to yourself for now..skibbish!

(PG post) Self Within

This post was PG once.But I decided to change my ways.Well at least I'll try to.Because 1st and foremost this blog was suppose to be a mature a humbled blog and I'm starting to hate my actual inner self of being very grudge full..So I'm taking away what I post earlier and I'm just gonna say I won't take in anymore of what I feel earlier in this post.Like whatever the problem was,I'm just gonna let it be..I must change,I must really be the mature man I am..That is why this post title is still titled Self within.After I read what I wrote,I am taken back by my own words,what Impression I made..And whoever fault in the previous post is,Whether it's me or theirs,I'm sorry for being so expressive.yeah,that's it..

post re-edited on Wednesday 11.13am 10 March 2010

Girl you should be my lady

Some say it ain't over till it's really over..There's something i gotta say before deciding to let you go..Here I am with my head looking down of regrets with the mistakes that I've done in making decisions.
I made alot of mistakes and made every wrong decisions is because I am human.What I need now is for you to really for forgive me the least.It should have been you back then,not her..It brings me great regret knowing just recently back then that you still have feelings for me.I don't know if it's still the same now..'If' it's ever possible,I'd like to win your heart,back like I won it the last time.I know I've to start from scratch and things will be even harder eversince that 'it' happened.I don't know how I'll do it and I don't know wether I'll really do it,because of friends of 3rd party.I don't want to end up being a bad friend to them.Since it's not a good time,things won't be brought up..But what is really in my mind now is just you..It's what that matters to me now.I'll fight all distractions with in mind all for and about you.But if it's a forbidden love,then I shall just leave my presence for you.I'll have to learn to take that love for you away,from myself..

Someone special in heart

Dearest Nadzirah Binte Azaruddin..It's cool that I've a friend like her.Despite her brace face,the annoying pinching,lies someone who's pretty and sweet (changed)soft spoken soul.She gives you a listening ear when you're down.Someone who is very understanding.We're all busy..I will always unserstand if she can't go out and just chill with me.But sometimes Nadz,you just took the time to go out despite everything.Doing such small things is very specially sweet.I hope our friendship lasts..

My other friends,don't be envious.Nadzirah here just caught my heart that it droves me to blog about her..Friends care,stay for a long time..A special shoutout to FIS,Taufiq,Haziq.You guys are one of the wonderous friends in this world that I have,because you're always around.

Allah is God,and he shall always bless people who does and be good.Not now,future.Not future,the after life.Believe it..Not easy,but believe it..

Just for Laugh

Me and my classmate named Zack was doing an act imitating the China men workers in Singapore.I'd thought I'd be confronted by my Chinese friends or something if they thought it was racism or something,but I guess it's okay?because they were laughing along with me,heh..Well the act was inspired by a friend of mine named Isaac,haha!And the other was me doing a random catwalk and acting like an Ah Kua lar..haha!Well out of entertainment for humour,watch the video.hopefully you'll enjoy it okay?