(PG post) Self Within

This post was PG once.But I decided to change my ways.Well at least I'll try to.Because 1st and foremost this blog was suppose to be a mature a humbled blog and I'm starting to hate my actual inner self of being very grudge full..So I'm taking away what I post earlier and I'm just gonna say I won't take in anymore of what I feel earlier in this post.Like whatever the problem was,I'm just gonna let it be..I must change,I must really be the mature man I am..That is why this post title is still titled Self within.After I read what I wrote,I am taken back by my own words,what Impression I made..And whoever fault in the previous post is,Whether it's me or theirs,I'm sorry for being so expressive.yeah,that's it..

post re-edited on Wednesday 11.13am 10 March 2010

Girl you should be my lady

Some say it ain't over till it's really over..There's something i gotta say before deciding to let you go..Here I am with my head looking down of regrets with the mistakes that I've done in making decisions.
I made alot of mistakes and made every wrong decisions is because I am human.What I need now is for you to really for forgive me the least.It should have been you back then,not her..It brings me great regret knowing just recently back then that you still have feelings for me.I don't know if it's still the same now..'If' it's ever possible,I'd like to win your heart,back like I won it the last time.I know I've to start from scratch and things will be even harder eversince that 'it' happened.I don't know how I'll do it and I don't know wether I'll really do it,because of friends of 3rd party.I don't want to end up being a bad friend to them.Since it's not a good time,things won't be brought up..But what is really in my mind now is just you..It's what that matters to me now.I'll fight all distractions with in mind all for and about you.But if it's a forbidden love,then I shall just leave my presence for you.I'll have to learn to take that love for you away,from myself..

Someone special in heart

Dearest Nadzirah Binte Azaruddin..It's cool that I've a friend like her.Despite her brace face,the annoying pinching,lies someone who's pretty and sweet (changed)soft spoken soul.She gives you a listening ear when you're down.Someone who is very understanding.We're all busy..I will always unserstand if she can't go out and just chill with me.But sometimes Nadz,you just took the time to go out despite everything.Doing such small things is very specially sweet.I hope our friendship lasts..

My other friends,don't be envious.Nadzirah here just caught my heart that it droves me to blog about her..Friends care,stay for a long time..A special shoutout to FIS,Taufiq,Haziq.You guys are one of the wonderous friends in this world that I have,because you're always around.

Allah is God,and he shall always bless people who does and be good.Not now,future.Not future,the after life.Believe it..Not easy,but believe it..